a long...long way from home

Mood: nano...nano...mix Gefühle

in der Zukunft blicken,

in der Gegenwart leben,

aus der vergangenheit lernen.

this is so true....

Mood: always change in 60 second!!!

aku terlalu banyak khawatir terhadap hal-2 dalam hidupku. Lagi ngerasa bosen banget, can't sleep ! don't know what to do. Mostly aku kebanyakan doing things yg useless, yg seharusnya aku kerjakan? malah terbengkalai ginih!!!...dunno...gimana nih nasib master thesisku? aduhhhhh ga tauuuu!!!!!!

 

"your future depends on many things, but mostly on you" -Frangk tyger-

Mood: so...so
Listening to: tv is on!

hey....whazz up...

A lot of things happened in my life...sometimes up sometimes down. And i felt like too lazy for doing something, but today i'll try to start writing again with the conclusion from months ago till now:

- my Grandma (mother from my mom) passed away on Monday, 11.07.2006 at 1:30 Am (she was only 69 years old), and that was really a big shocking moment in my life, because she was really a healthy person, and one day, a month before she left us forever, she was sick (but i dunno exactly what kind of illness she had)....don't want to talk about it again...it just makes me like crying

- got a really great summer job for 3 month at the chocolate company near from where i live at this moment...earnt a bit lot of moneyyyyy, got chocolates for free every friday...wahahahahaha and could buy a new laptop...

- December 2006, i stayed in the hospital for 3 days because i was really sick...even until now i actually need to see the doctor for check up...hikkkss!

- January 2006-February 2007, my brother got problem with woman (actually he almost always get problem with this kind of human being!!!)... but this time he maked my parent and i really mad and sad, that was really frustrating!!! but thank God the problem solved and everybody seems happy and satisfied...( i hope!!!), and my brother, he's back like himself before...that's the good point!

- i am going back home soon...back to indonesia..probably for good...because my parent want me to get married soon...

- trying to finish all the things that need to be finished including my study...really soon!!! fightiiiiiing!!!

till now i still feel that there is somethings wrong in my body...i don't feel well at all...

i need some rest now...feel like sleepy...goodnight!!!

Mood: pengen banting-banting neh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Listening to: -

ich bin dumm, oder bist du es etwa???, wer ist jetzt schuld mein Gott????

ich weiss, dass ich eine Egoistin bin, aber Du mein Herr, Du bist noch schlimmer als ich...weisst Du das????????

gue masih mikirin elu, apa elu udah makan ato belom!!!!  walaupun gue udah gawe 8 jam sehari, gue masih mikirin kalo elo yg kerjaannya gak jelas lagi nahan laper!!!! dannnnn gue masak buat elo...sekarang cuma gara-2 elo takut ketinggalan nonton bola (jangan cari alesan ntar gue nunggu elo di U-Bahn Ohlsdorf terlalu lama ato apalah...soalnya gue tau kalo itu bukan elo banget yah!!!!!!!!!!) dan pegang konci kamar gue, dan gue cuma mau minta konci kamar gue doank dari elu yg susahnya ternyata minta ampun, cuma gara-2 gue ngerubah rencana, dan kalau ini...dan kalau itu!!!! tetep itu gue yg salah yahhhhhh...emmmmm...btw sorry deh kalo gue kasar ama elooooooooo yaaaaaaaahhh...tapi itulah gue, gue gak bisa berpura-pura tetep baek ama lo...sedangkan elu tuh kadang-2 kayak orang yg gak punya perasaan und.....ich hasse Dichhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mood: tired

today is my birthday and i am getting older....x_x`

just already got back from work and iam feeling olddddd...damn it!!!