Damn The Masquerade...

Well, I'm going to give online dating a shot, and that's probably where I'll end up, shot to death, inside of someone's trunk. Ha-Ha! I don't know which one of those sites to try. Maybe I'll try several of them. I'm not eager to do this so it will probably be a few before I try it out. There is no one in this town, for me! So I have to do a global search. Ha-Ha! Knowing me I'll probably end up with a serial killer or something. Obviously I don't trust anyone so this is going way outside of my box! But I'm on this whole "trying different things kick." We will see how this turns out. I'm thinking I'm only going to get a few good conversations out of this entire thing. I'll let you know what happens!

I'm at a point where I just have given up all hope. I can't even have a conversation with a man. I mean they look at my breast while they are supposedly talking to me. They make dates, don't show up and then have the nerve to contact me months later, like I am so desperate that I would actually bother to talk to them. What the hell?

 

 I know people probably wonder why I'm always talking about my period on P.N. and it's simply a habit. I have more in common with men so they usual are the ones I want to spend the most time with and as you know, eventually a guy will give you that look. When they give it to me I just start talking about my period because that pretty much takes away their sexually desire and it usually freaks them out. They just don't want to hear about. You know, God forbid I start talking about my uterus. Ha-Ha. I used to think it was possible for men and women to be friends only, but now, I'm not so sure.

See! This is the shit I'm talking about. I look at a man and he acts like he's the greatest man who ever lived. You'd think the older a man gets the better he behaves but in my experience, they just get worse with age. I think I'm going to marry myself. Ha-Ha! Men have no reason to act better. When they meet me and see that I'm not going to worship them, they move on quickly because there is a line of thousands of women who will do the things I wont do and put up with the things that I won't put up with.

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man I knew for about 3 minutes: how long do you wait to have sex with someone?

 

me: you'll never find out

 

man: oh you're one of those types of girls

 

me: what are 'those types of girls'

 

man: girls who think that they're too good to give it up. If you ain't letting a nigga hit it, he ain't gonna deal with you

 

Yeah, this is the type shit that I'm tired of dealing with! If I don't get naked within the first five minutes, I'm stuck up and a bitch, then I have to go upside his head for calling me a bitch... Men keep telling me that not all men are this way, and so far nobody has shown that to me. I've had men pretend to be my friends and when I refuse them they never speak to me again. I don't understand why you would waste someone's time like that.

I should probably contact The World Book because I think I've broken the record for "longest time being single."

 

Nobody's even around. This isn't even a dry spell, this is a fucking famine. Where the hell are the men at? (the sane men) 

 

I don't know what I'm saying, I'm too tired to think about this right now.