Planet Nergeedor

These are strange times! Today a woman just walks up to me and says "Hi!" very friendly. And I look at her and say hi back. The thing is she was an older white woman and my entire life older white women didn't acknowledge my presence or they grabbed their purses or something, here lately every where I go white people are being really nice. I'm talking about the older generations, white people my age have always been friendly for the most part. It's like this town has done a complete turn around. Very weird! You have to be a black person from a small southern town to understand why this sudden change in behavior is freaking me out. Something aint right! Ha-Ha.

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So as you know I'm going through a very lonely period and I've been trying to distract myself from my emotions, but they were out of control today! Last night I had a dream, I don't want to give you TMI but it started off with me getting down with one of the Ying Yang Twins, I fall asleep (in my dream) and wake up next to Rainbow Sun Francks and he says "I'm moving to L.A. you should move there with me, you need to be around people in the industry so you can shop your work around, blah, blah, blah". Suddenly I'm in a car garage and Marques Houston comes out of the back room and I start rubbing his chest and arms and then Young Rome and LDB  show up, we start talking about their Immature days and they just suddenly break into this dance where they're doing very suggestive things with baseball bats. Then every male entertainer, writer etc., that I find attractive shows up shirtless and they all surround me. So I wake up and I'm like "Good lawd, I gotta go get some movies so I can get out of my head." On the way to the video store I see four sweaty mechanics working on a car and one of them wipes his face with the back of his hands and for some reason my mind processed all of this in slow motion. Then a little while later I see some construction workers. blah, blah, blah. I get home, take a pizza cutter and start cutting a frozen pizza, I start thinking about the mechanics and construction workers, I completely zone out thinking about them and sliced right into my hand, so blood's gushing every where, I'm running my hand under water and it wont stop bleeding, so finally I get a big wad of paper towels and press down as hard as I could for about five minutes and the bleeding finally stopped. You know you've been single for way too long when you cut your hand open 'cause you're day dreaming so hard... Ha-Ha! I can't help but to laugh at myself some times!

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Recent movies:

 

Doom -- The only reason I won't say I hate this movie is because of Karl Urban and we know why I'm so fond of him!

 

The lord of war -- was boring, but funny on a few parts

 

Smile -- it was okay but the ending implied that if you look like every one else you'll have a better life, I wasn't too fond of that idea

 

Bubble -- I thought I was watching a movie about this town, very accurate small town depiction, I lost it when the lady says "I don't know what happened" and I burst out with "You choked the bitch, that's what the fuck happened." (I crack myself up, but you know this already!)

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In 8 or 9 days I'll be 26! Can you believe that! I told everyone that I don't want anything and not to buy me anything. I hope they listen! I don't want to have to hear them on the phone saying how they don't have any money because they had to buy me something! I'm just gonna watch Atlantis or something the whole day.

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Anyway as you can tell I'm not in my normal "can write all night, every night" mood so maybe I'll be here tomorrow, maybe I won't, who knows. I've got movies to watch. Have fun and be good!