Restless
I can't sleep, even though I am beyond tired. I tried reading a book, but my mind kept wandering off. I tried to watch a movie, but after 15 minutes of trying to decide what to watch, I gave up. I said before that my surroundings reflect what's going on inside my head and lets just say that it looks like a hurricane came through here. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm sleepy, tired, bored, lonely, depressed, and angry.
Maybe I should take Black Widow out of retirement. There's Sims that need killing. Ha-Ha. Hmm, I don't seem to be up for that either. I don't know, I keep thinking of things that usually cheer me up, but I lack the desire to do anything. I'm completely drained. I haven't even re-hung my paintings. When I was about 20 or 21, my whole life fell apart and I felt exactly the way I feel now only worse and I didn't leave the house, I didn't do anything, I just laid in bed. I didn't even cry, I was like a zombie or something. See This is what I'm talking about, I just laid my head on the desk for about five minutes, I'm completely drained of energy. It's official now, I'm a mess.
*grins*