Planet Nergeedor

Everyone wants to be something they are not. Women who have small breast want bigger ones and I damn sure want smaller ones. I wish they were interchangeable, just snap off the big ones and put on small ones, vice versa. I can't get the cute little bra and panty sets. I have to get the Granny bras with the 50 hooks and reinforced sides. I swear it feels like I'm strapping up to go in to combat everyday. And for the record the law of gravity sucks! I'm scared to see myself in 50 years, I'm probably gonna need a harness! Ha-Ha. If I had small breast I'd probably be complaining about that! Curly wants Straight, Short wants Tall, the grass is always greener.

 

 

Things That Don't Exist:

 

Royalty - There is no such thing as 'royal blood.' I could take over a country right now and declare myself queen and then all of my decedents would be said to have 'royal blood'

 

Peer Pressure - This is what people use to make themselves feel better. "I just fell in with the wrong crowd."...You ARE the wrong crowd. If you decided (I don't care what your age is) to do something that you feel is wrong or society feels is wrong take responsibility for your actions. The only way your choices aren't your fault is if someone put a gun to your head and forced you to do whatever.

 

Perfection - No matter how hard anyone tries there is always going to be something about yourself (physically or emotionally) that you don't like. The trick is learning to love it!

 

Sanity - Were all nuts! Just go outside and look around. Exactly, nothing but nut cases!

 

Me - I don't exist I'm a figment of your imagination. There is no blog. Ha-Ha. Just kidding! Or am I? Ha-Ha. I crack myself up

 

I can't sleep. I'm so jealous of those people that can say "I'm gonna take a nap" and they just close their eyes and fall asleep right where they are sitting. I have to go through this whole drill: Go to the bathroom, turn the fan on high, cover the standby light on the computer, turn off the light, get under the covers (I feel very unsafe if I'm not covered. Weird huh?), get comfortable (which usually takes about 20 min), make myself stop thinking about certain things that cause me stress. Most of the time it takes me about an hour to fall asleep. And then I wake up about every hour. I always look at the clock when I wake up to see how long I've slept. I've tried counting sheep and it always ends in a hail of gun fire! Ha-Ha. I mean if you're trying to sleep and you can't stand repetitive noise, then imaging a bunch of baahing sheep just isn't a good Idea! I go insane when someone wakes me up! They know I don't sleep well and they wake me up for stupid reasons, then when I flip out I'm the "mean" one. If they didn't sleep they'd now how it feels. The movie 'The Machinist' is an accurate portrayal of insomnia, after about 6 days you feel like "is this real, Am I real? It's terrible......Know what I've noticed. I don't say I or me. I say you or people, I don't acknowledge myself. (This is another affect of insomnia you start to have all of these enlightenment, zen moments, then when you sleep and read whay you've written you think ' "I'm insane!" and for some reason I type with lightning speed......I don't know what the fuck I'm saying anymore. I think I'm in the matrix, I did experience dejvu today! Ha-Ha.