All kinds of silly little things.
Mood: not feeling so hot
Listening to: No Doubt
The past few days have been almost unbearable. I don't know why things suddenly get bad. Nothing new happened but things that I normally brush off or push to the side have crept up into my daily thoughts and I'm having trouble dealing with it. I'm really struggling. So of course I've been watching movies, listening to music, and reading books.
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How old do you think I am? People think I'm either 12 years old or 50 years old! And they are completely wrong. It cracks me up when I get carded at the movie theater! A lot of people have told me I look old too. Maybe my face morphs. Ha-Ha... Maybe people tell me I look old just to be ass holes. I feel like I'm 100 years old! I've been through so much already. I'm nervous to see what's going to happen next. I've been through the big stuff already so I'll probably fall in to a black hole, meet up with Jimmy Hoffa on a cannibalistic planet, and get eaten. You know dark meat has the most flavor...
Speaking of cannibals... The Green Butchers was hilarious! When that guy said he didn't like the chicken because it taste like Gretchen I lost it. I was so glad someone in the film asked him why he ate his wife and not the other passengers...For some reason I think I've seen a movie exactly like that before...I couldn't do it. I can barely eat animals without throwing up. How on earth could people eat other people. I'll tell you tomorrow why I stopped eating sea food and I can hardly stomach any kind of food lately, it's a loooong story!
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I am losing my fucking mind. I keep smelling a combination of fried
chicken and cigarettes. And no one in my house smokes!
I woke up terrified of the lamp. It looked big and that freaked me out.
I dreamed I was wearing a t-shirt that said, never mind what it said, but it was weird. (something related to fire and I ain't going there!) The water hose was on fire and I was using the very same water hose to put the fire out...Then I needed paper and I asked Eminem for some and he told me to look in his back pack. I unzipped one pocket and it was full of cheeze its ,then I asked him if he was still mad at me and he rolled his eyes and said yes. My crush was there too but he didn't say anything...(obviously Eminem and the cheeze its come from watching TV before going to bed)
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The Runner. I can't wait for season 2 to come out on DVD! (Hopefully soon!)... I LOVE this episode. I had forgotten that Ford pushed McKay into a tree! I loved Ford's whole vibe. He reminded me of myself. Ha-Ha! He was all calm one minute and the next he just snapped. When McKay shot him, the look on McKays face and then him screaming like a little girl... Oh man I can't get enough of this episode. Sadly I forgot to tape it, again!
