Planet Nergeedor

While flipping through the channels, I stop on BET because I hear Keith David's voice (how any one could not love him, I don't know!). There was this program on about Rapper's Beefs. I can't even believe that a bunch of grown ass men run around like 6 year old girls, going back and forth, running off at the mouth. And they all are cowards! If you have to walk around with 20 other men and guns, you're a coward. I bet if they didn't have those people around them, they wouldn't say shit! And how dumb can you be to let people know that you wear a bullet proof vest? You're just letting people know to aim for your head and not the chest...I never had a "crew" never carried a gun and I'm a GIRL! Of course I don't go getting up in people's faces and start shit with them so I really don't need protection right?...This is why I have no fear of gang members or terrorist. They couldn't say and do the shit they do on their own, they had to join a fucking "play group"! And then they'll talk a whole lot of shit in front of a camera, but hide their faces. If you're so hard core and feel that nobody can touch you, then let us know who you are. Don't do sneak attacks...let people know where and when... I don't deal with men like this. I like mellow guys who stay to themselves, mind their own business and if they have a problem with someone, they go and talk to the person...I would be embarrassed if I was a man and behaved that way, I'd be embarrassed being a woman who behaved that way...I just don't get the whole territory thing, you think you better than person 1 because you live in a different run down neighborhood? Ha-Ha. Dumb asses are killing each other over roach infested housing. Are you kidding me? ... I've got an idea for all of the Rappers out there, Grow the fuck up! ... I've told so many men like this the same thing and they sit there and say "you're right, this is childish, I could be doing something more positive," then they turn around and do the same shit again!...

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You should have paid attention to the message in The Boondocks, instead of the words that were used. The message was: Dr. King would be upset that black people have not taken full advantage of the rights the he and others fought so hard to get us...No one who likes the show is going to stop watching it! And advertisers know this! People who like that show obviously can think for themselves... I don't understand how tearing down a black man who uses humor to bring light to the political and social situations in America makes sense. Isn't that what you tried to do? ...

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I couldn't stop laughing at this movie...'Heaven's Fire'...it wasn't supposed to be a comedy but it sure was funny to me! Ha-Ha. On one part a cement stair case collapsed on this boy and a lady says "don't move, I'm coming down" ... yeah, I don't think he was going anywhere! Ha-Ha...Hilarious.

 

Then there's this other movie 'Row Your Boat'...I couldn't stop laughing! Again it wasn't supposed to be funny, but I couldn't help myself.

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I felt so sick that I tried to watch my shows last night, but I couldn't...Oh well, I guess I'll catch 'em some other time!

Things that have cracked me up:

 

While watching Pitch Black:

70 year old: (referring to Vin Diesel) He has nice skin, ooooh look at his teeth, he's so handsome, blah, blah, blah

me: that man is young enough to be your son

70 year old: (says something like) "age is only a number and that she's old , not dead"

 

This was some hilarious shit to me! Because she was talking about him like he was live stock or something. Too Funny!

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While watching the video "We Belong Together"

person: it's a shame she left that man at the alter

me: Child please! I would have ran over Eric Robert's face to get to Wentworth. Hell, I would have left with him (Wentworth Miller) in "It's Like That" 

person: that's a damn shame

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So, someone says to me:

 

person: I'm going to the store, do you need anything.

me: what store?

person: grocery store

me: yes, I'll go get the money, blah, blah, blah

 

not five minutes later she's on the phone saying how she HAS to go to the store for me, implying I asked her to go. I completely flipped out on her.

I should have said no and just ate my clif bars until I felt like going to the store, because this is how they are! They'll do stuff for you but they have to let everyone on the planet know that they've helped someone out. I'm not like that! When I do something for someone, I NEVER mention it again to the person and I sure as hell don't tell anyone else about it. When I do things for people it's because I want to do it, not to get a pat on the back and for people to tell me how I'm a good person for helping someone else. I think they were put here on this earth just to drive me crazy! Ha-Ha.

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I worked on my book for a little while today. I seriously crack myself up! Of course I can't tell you what I wrote but, Ha-Ha...it was funny! I think ya'll are going to like it!

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I did a search for that Death Mask I was telling you about and I didn't find the exact one but I found a few that also look very similar to me, but not as close as the one I saw on that documentary. They must be my people. I'm a decedent of the Pharaoh's, bow down and worship me...Ha-Ha. Some people don't know how luckily they are to know where they come from. We can only go back to the early 1800s, then things get confusing, and that's only my mother's side, we have no clue about my father's side, and he's so confused...never mind. Ha-Ha! It's not fair (pouting)

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Well, I've got movies to watch and REAL food to eat! Bye-Bye.

 

So, I'm a little better.

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You know, when I first heard about Stargate Atlantis, I said I wasn't going to watch it, there  was no need for another Stargate because SG1 was so good, blah, blah, blah...Now I like Atlantis better than SG1! McKay was so hilarious! I can't remember exactly but my favorite quote from this weeks episode is:

 

"You claim to be a creation of my imagination and yet you are not in any way dressed provocatively..." -Rodney McKay   ILOVE McKay, he's a mess!

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I've lost about ten pounds because I've been living off of Clif bars! I need to go shopping for food! Not that I'm upset about the weight loss but I am going to get even sicker if I don't eat real food. I'm just not up to going to the store right now.

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MTV is crap now! They don't play videos until 3 am and they play the same 15 over and over and over again. AND they only play R&B artist after their song is a hit and has been on BET for five or six months, like Ray J's song, umm, can't think of the name right now, but I didn't like it that much to begin with and I'm sick of it from BET. MTV2 was supposed to be an "all music" channel and yet whenever I turn to it, some stupid show is own. That's why videos are getting worse and worse, artist are desperate to have their video be one of the 15. I mean how many times do we need to see a "strip club" scene, how many times do we need to see ass? Pretty soon It's going to be an "all porn" channel...And BET isn't doing so well either but they're an Entertainment channel, and they give new artist a chance, before the son g is a hit! I'm just tired of seeing the same thing, over and over again!

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Every time I look in the mirror I see that mask, you know the one I saw on the History channel...It's so creepy! If I can find a photo of the mask somewhere, I'll let you know, then you'll know what I look like!

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I haven't been visiting any of you lately, I'm just not in a social mood right now. I haven't forgotten you though! We shall meet again. Ha-Ha.

 

Well, the reason I had my mini-nervous breakdown yesterday, is because the mayo doc called me and said that the ana results were abnormal, he didn't know why, and to go back to the doc that sent me to mayo. The reason the doc sent me to mayo was because she didn't know why the same test was abnormal, so I have to go to more docs now. I feel like a fucking ping-pong ball. I'm just getting thrown back and forth, back and forth. I can deal with being sick, it's just being sick, on top of loneliness, on top of people fucking with me all the time... I don't show it but I am very sensitive. I feel everything so deeply and whenever people needed to be comforted I was always there, I took care of everyone and now no one is taking care of me. If I say that I'm not feeling well they try and trump me! "Oh, well that's nothing compared to what I'm going through."  I just want someone to take care of me. I need that now more than ever and I have no way of getting what it is I need. I would have been fine yesterday if I could have called someone and they would have just been here. The quality of my voice right now is horrible, I'm having trouble with my ears and a singer can't sing without a voice and ears. I feel like everything that I've worked for or towards is being taken away from me. I can only take so much... I don't even know what I'm doing any more. I got through last night by watching movies and funny interviews that I had taped. I still haven't went to sleep. I'm completely lost. Sorry if I freaked anyone out...I'm a basket case right now.

Not going to discuss my little episode that I had earlier. I'm okay. I'm okay. I just freaked out for a little while. I'm fine.

 

I dreamed we were driving down a narrow road and saw a skull, we pulled over and picked it up along with pieces that had broken off of it. So I take it to my room and put it together and it looks like my grand father, the next thing I know a little boy has the skull on like a mask and he's slowly sliding across the floor towards me...I wake up, turn over, go back to sleep and dream that I'm standing in front of a house taking a picture. I was holding a baby whose eyes looked like mine and the rest of his features looked like the guy who was standing next to me...I wake up again in a state of terror, I have no clue why that dream freaked me out. The whole skull thing didn't bother me, but the second dream scared the hell out of me. I'm so backwards!

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I don't know why some people like to argue. In my opinion it's pointless. Every has arguments but some people just go out of their way to start drama. For me, I really don't like to argue with people, it annoys me. Don't get me wrong though, I'm only gonna try and walk away a few times, if someone gets in my face, then there is a going to be a big problem. With me arguments always end with me giving one of my looks. That's all it takes. I've perfected my looks. With one glance I can say a whole lot that people just don't hear while they're arguing with me. And you know the best thing about me is also the worst thing about me, I will back up everything that comes out of my mouth and every look that I give and people know it, that's why they back off. I just want to mind my own business and do what I want to do without the bull shit. You'd think adults would have something more productive to do with themselves than go around starting arguments.

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Whenever I leave a room, I don't say good bye, I say "No. But I'm like your old daddy, Gone!" It's a joke I heard.

 

A man goes to a club, meets a woman and goes home with her. He wakes up the next morning and there are nine kids surrounding the bed staring and him and one of the kids says:

 

kid: you our new daddy?

man: No. But I'm like your old daddy, Gone!

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I also walk around saying "If I could eat a chip, I wouldn't be here" I got that from a Sinbad show, he said he went on the nutri-system diet to lose weight and the lady says:

 

lady: If you get hungry between meals, eat a nutri-chip

Sinbad: If I could eat 'a' chip I wouldn't be here

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I was watching an old western and...

 

me: they better stop worrying about that money and go searching for water

person: there is no water, they're in the desert

me: all deserts have water, it only waits to be found (doing my Imam impersonation)

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Boondocks was hilarious. I've had "the itis" more than once in my life. Ha-Ha. Moral Orel was a hot mess! Both shows cheered me up.

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Anyway, I'm gonna go and distract myself. Be good and have fun.

MOVIE STAR

 

 

You’re a movie star

But you don’t know how special you are

Everyone in the world loves you

And you hate yourself

That’s why you’ll never belong to anyone else

It’s not until long after the credits roll

That you realize, your story still hasn’t been told

 

 

You walk into the room

And everyone turns to see

You’re everything that they wish to be

If they weren’t so blinded by your smile

They’d see it behind your eyes

You’re still a little child

 

 

You’re a movie star

But you don’t know how special you are

You’re just a movie star

Unhappy, because no one loves you for who you are

I bet if we could see things from your point of view

(after the red carpet, when you’re done with the show)

None of us would envy you

We’d realize how human you are

We’d realize you’re just a movie star

 

COPYRIGHT August 2005

(My shit is in fact copyrighted so if I should happen to hear it anywhere, that's your ass!)

I'm not feeling so hot. I feel like shit on a stick. You know this already...

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While watching the news my mouth dropped open with disbelief as I heard a reporter say "...if this is true..." What? "If" are you kidding me? Soon they're gonna say things like "My cousin's, friend's, aunt's, dog walker's, husband said blah, blah, blah. If... my favorite "if" quote will tie in perfectly here

 

"If, If, If. If grandma had balls, she'd be grandpa."

 

I can believe that people are so...I don't know what word I'm looking for but every time I start flipping through the channels I hear "(So and So) wore the same dress that (who ever) did two years okay, what a scandal." ...I guess the apocalypse is upon us because two people wore the same dress. If I were her I'd wear the same dress to every event for the next ten years! I don't understand people, I really don't. The only time I watch an award show is when a musician that I really, really like is performing and when they're done, I turn the channel.

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I freaked out over this! I was watching a documentary on the History Channel about ancient Egypt and they showed a mummy that had a mask and I look at it and saw myself. The same eyes, same nose, same mouth, same cheek bones, same hair. Very creepy. Maybe that's why people stare at me, maybe they saw the same documentary. Very creepy!

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I almost didn't watch my Stargates because I felt so bad but I said "I can't miss it." So I watched them and I'm so glad I did! You gotta love Ronin! I lost it when he wanted to go beat the information out of what's his name! And then when the guy fainted, very funny stuff.

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My Pitch Black obsession has gotten ridiculous! I watched PB, then the commentary, then I went to sleep. I wake up and start flipping through the channels and it was on tv so I watched it, on tv, even though I have not one, but two copies of the dvd, both the standard and widescreen versions. I don't know why this movie fascinates me so much! It's crazy! There are a lot of movies that I love but this one just stands out...

 

...speaking of movies. Recent movies:

Underclassman-- didn't do anything for me 

The man -- didn't do anything for me

 

White Dragon -- this movie was stupid and I LOVED every single second of it. It cracked me up, it's stupid in the way that 'Chat Room' or 'Napoleon Dynamite' is stupid. I had so much fun watching this movie! Very fun movie!

 

Mail Order Wife -- Oh, you can't even understand how much I loved this movie. I mean, I don't want to give it away in case you watch it but, This movie will end up in my collection. While watching this, I didn't want to laugh on some parts but I couldn't help it. Best movie I've seen in a while! Really good! Really good! (make sure you watch the end credits, you're gonna crack up!). So much fun!

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I still think this whole blog thing is hilarious! If you knew me and I told you this was my blog you'd call me a liar! No one, knows anything about me, In the past week I've maybe said 20 words, more like 20 grunts. But here I am putting every person who has access to a computer all up in my business! I try not to leave too much of my location and certain unique personality traits here but in reality it would take about 20 minutes to figure out who I am! I know that if my life goes as planned one day someone is gonna ask "Did you have a blog titled Planet Nergeedor?" and I'm gonna look the person dead in the eye and say "Ner - what? What are you talking about?" Ha-Ha! I'm a logical person I know that there is no way that I'm going to delete this blog and never hear about it again. I'm intensely private, no one can get any information out of me, I don't like for people to know about my life, and yet I come here and tell everyone on the planet everything (well, not everything, but you know what I mean) about me! Where is the logic in that? If I just wanted to write I could use my journal or if I wanted to use a internet journal I could have a private one. So why do I have a blog? Beats the hell out of me! It defies all logic...

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This should probably go on DTM but I don't feel like putting it there, this is what I want to say or know:

 

Is it me or them? Seriously is there something wrong with me? Every man says the same thing to me "You're different, you're not like other girls, you're the perfect girl,..." and then they disappear. I see them two years later and they're married with kids. So many women have told me to act interested in whatever the man I want is interested in and I am completely unwilling to do that. I'm not going to pretend to be someone I'm not. Every time any woman in my family is dating a man she completely changes her entire personality, her pov, even her eating habits to match him. And they end up being with the guy for 15 years, getting married and I can't even get to a first date, I don't understand. I know that everyone doesn't have the same life and just because I want something doesn't mean I'm gonna get it. It's probably written somewhere on Hammurabi's Law Code that I must always be alone. In two months I'll be 26 and still nothing! I try and tell myself that men are a waste a time, and I'm just going to end up being hurt, but I still want that. From what I've seen in order for me to find someone I have to be fake and the only way I'm capable of pretending to be something I'm not is if someone says "action." And after action eventually someone is going to say cut...I'm not asking for much! I just want a nice, kind, quiet, faithful, real, down to earth guy who likes sci-fi, music, books and isn't a child molester or bank robber! That's it, nothing fancy, he doesn't have to be rich, he could work at Mc Donald's for all I care as long as he's doing something! He doesn't have to wear expensive clothes, doesn't have to buy me diamond rings. You'd think that men would love the fact that I don't talk a lot, because they're always complaining about that, but when I don't talk to them all day, they get pissy and call me a cold hearted bitch...I don't think I'll ever get it. I'm confused about this whole thing! Well, I can't very well put a gun to some guy's head and say "love me motherfucker or I'll blow your brains out" I can't force a man to be with me and no man can force me to be what he wants me to be or be with him, so I'll just be here, alone, with movies. It's one thing to be sick, but to be sick and lonely is pure hell! But you know this all ready, I have an entire blog just so I can complain about it! Fuck it, I'm going to bed.  

I'm loving Stargate Atlantis! Suddenly McKay has balls! I seriously cracked up on last weeks episode! I lost it when McKay called Tayla and Ronin "Conan and Zena." Very funny stuff.

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I'm redoing my room, well, I'm changing the art on my walls (I'm not well enough to repaint or anything). One wall has an Ancient Egypt theme, I made it look like someone knocked two holes in the wall allowing you to see two pages from 'The Book Of The Dead' it came out better than I thought it would. The paint on one came out looking just like the color of the inside of pyramids, the other looks a little too dark but it's still okay. I might put a couple more up there. Then on another wall is an Ancient Japanese theme, it has 6 Geisha(s?), Dragons and a Japanese house.

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Things I learned the hard way:

 

Never let any man use your computer! You won't believe what I found when I was deleting cookies! I was disgusted! I disinfected the entire computer, the desk, the chair, the pens, everything!

 

Don't leave a book of your art work near any water supply, you should see the damage that was done! I almost cried!

 

Make people sign out the movies and music that they borrow so you know who to hem up when something is missing.

 

Never tell anyone if you're trying to lose weight! As soon as the words hit your lips cakes, cookies, hams, and pies will start showing up at your door. And when you lose weight break off relationships with people who constantly try and sabotage you. Those people AREN'T friends! Friends support you, not discourage you!

 

Never let anyone know, that your relationship with them changed your life in any way! Most of the time I pretend that I have no clue as to who they are. That really pisses people off! "I can't believe you don't remember me" and in my head I'm thinking "I remember you asshole, you screwed up my life. You'd better not be around when I finally snap."

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Any way, I must go. Bye-Bye!

 

 

 

Well, I'm feeling better but still sick! I keep feeling like I feel better then five minutes later it's bad again!

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Every one is wondering why that judge in (Vermont?) gave that child rapist such a short jail sentence, I'm gonna tell you why.

Because that judge is also a child rapist! The only people on the planet who have sympathy for people who hurt children are people who hurt children. I guarantee you that his victims are going to start coming forward. I mean if we logically think about this what other reason could he have to be lenient? Is he being black mailed or something? They must have some hard core evidence against him or something if that's the case! (And before you start sending me emails, no I don't have any evidence of him abusing a child, this is just my opinion)

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The news channels are reporting more about James Frey's inaccurate information then they did the WMD in accurate information...Funny huh?

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Recent Movies:

Red Eye -- lots of fun

 

Must Love Dogs -- not so fun

 

Transporter 1 & 2 -- fun'

 

Nobody Knows -- good story but too long, almost fun

 

Serenity -- fun (I don't get why they didn't call it Firefly?)

 

Hustle & Flow -- fun (The cover has a critic's quote on there and it says something like "Terrence Howard...A star is born," this isn't his first movie, he's been in countless numbers of movies he's been around for a very long time. He's been a "Star" in the black community for a very long time. It's the same thing with Jamie Foxx, he has been a "Star" to black people for a very long time! 'RAY' wasn't his first movie!)

 

(some one told me: Watch Hustle & Flow, it reminds me of you

me: a movie about a pimp and some hos reminds you of me?

someone: just watch it and you'll know what I'm talking about

 

...after watching it I said 'Oh that's why she said that' ...Basically I create songs using a keyboard and a hand held tape recorder. I know some people think that I go to a recording studio, but I don't and I see no point in telling them!)

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I've been very sick. I'm feeling slightly better today. And I've been very depressed so I have just been watching movies back-to-back. I probably won't be around for a few days. I'm going back to bed. Be good and have fun!

"And that's what happens when you force the hand of a brilliant scientist" -Rodney McKay, Stargate Atlantis

 

Okay, so SG1 was great, lots of fun, but I want to talk about SGA...! Oh, man it was so much fun! Very Fun Episode!

 

Lt. Ford was great! I completely lost it when he jumped on the wraith's neck, because he is so little. Hilarious! And when he threw the knife, very funny. And when he came around the corner with guns, you probably could hear me screaming at the tv...they didn't kill him off, his fate is unknown which means he'll be popping up in episodes now and then. (Thanks for letting us Ford fans know! Ha-Ha!)

 

Ronin cracked me up when he starts pulling out all those knives! Hilarious.

 

Beckkett cracked me up when he said he felt like the priest from the exorcist. Very Funny.

 

But the person who made me laugh until I hurt was McKay. When he said the above line, I completely lost it, then when he was hyped up on wraith enzyme and screaming at Beckkett, hilarious.

 

I loved this episode, a great start to the season, I had so much, very fun episode! WooHoo!

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I watched 'Dark Water' and it was kind of boring to me until the last 15 minutes or so. I would have kicked Natasha in the face, I don't care how old she is! She's old enough to act crazy, then she's old enough to get kicked in the face! Ha-Ha. So you can't really fight a ghost but I would have been trying to exorcise her or something. Ha-Ha! ...And if my dead momma braids my hair, I'm surely not going to be smiling about it. I'd probably shave my head!

 

I also watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith, I can't get enough of it!

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I had a very weird dream yesterday! I was in the house from "13 Ghost" (the remake) and David Twohy was riding up and down in the elevator shooting at me. I dream about some crazy shit.

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Well, I'm gonna go. I've been up, I can't sleep. I guess I'll find something to watch or read.

 

Well, I'm writing early today because tonight at 8 o'clock, Stargate SG1 will be on then at 9 o'clock Stargate Atlantis (I don't like Battle Star!) WooHoo! Gonna be a fun night!

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I watched 'The Cave' and it's was a fun movie. Had a blast! You know how I like Cole Hauser's voice because he always sounds like the next thing he's gonna say is 'motherfucker'? Well, his very last line in the movie was something like "come on, mother..." and then they cut the shot. I so badly wanted to hear him say it! Ha-Ha! Anyway fun movie.

 

So, yesterday I rented some more movies. The first three I watched were beyond boring, I'm sorry that I wasted my money! Then I watched 'The Island" it revived me, the only complaint I have about it is that I felt like was watching a mix of movies, Logan's Run + The Matrix + The Fifth Element = The Island... it was very fun though and my boy Steve Buscemi was in there, love him! I still haven't watched 'Dark Water' yet. I hope it's fun! And I bought 'Mr. & Mrs. Smith, so I'll watch that tonight too. (I know you're probably wondering how my broke ass can afford to buy so many movies, well I'll let you in on my little secrets.

 

The day a movie is released on DVD, don't buy it unless you really, really can't live without it. Go to the video store and find out if it's a "Guaranteed In Stock" item, if it is then wait until the store no longer considers it a "new release" and they put it in their previously viewed movies section, you'll end up paying half the price or less. Now if it's not a "guaranteed in stock" item you have decide if you can wait a while to own it. If you can wait, then wait about a year and you'll be able to find it for 3/4 the original price and if you wait longer 1/2 price.

 

And my ultimate secret that I'm not going to give away completely (you have to figure it out for yourself). There's a mail order company, you've probably never heard of it. (It's not one of those membership clubs like bmg or columbia house, steer clear of those! I'll tell you why some other time!) Any way if you order via mail using their catalog you'll pay the price that's in the catalog, but if you go to their website and order, the movies are slightly reduced (a few times the movies have been ten bucks less than their catalog!) and you can find rare stuff their (the rare stuff is kind of pricey but still good deals, if you've been searching for a movie for years). I adore them, they don't harass you with a catalog every week or anything. They do business they way business should be done! They tell you you'll get x amount of dollars off if you use the website and they are telling the truth! I think they do it because they save on paper work! Now I'm not telling you the name because, if a bunch of people start ordering they may stop it and I need my bargains, but if you email me I'll tell you the name. I like to share! Ha-Ha!

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Well, it's nearly seven o'clock so I must go get some dinner and prepare for my Stargates, everyone lets say a prayer for Ford...Amen! Ha-Ha. I'll probably return here all distraught tomorrow if they kill him off! Ha-Ha.

Wish Ford luck!

Well, I've watched everything except 'The Cave' ... (Layer Cake is about this drug dealer who decided to get out of the business and then everything just goes to hell)...I was entertained but nothing was 'amazing'. Emily Rose and Layer Cake were fun! (And out of respect for Ziyi Zhang, we wont discuss 2046.)

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I keep having this weird reoccurring dream. First I'm in a bath tub kissing some dude (I know who it is but I'm not telling!) and the next thing I know I'm on stage singing and someone shoots me. I've had this dream so many times! Very weird.

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I had a bad day again. I've got one of my headaches, I'm lonely, I'm angry, I'm depressed. You'd think that I'd get over it all ready, but nope, it's up to a couple of times a week now, that I get like this. (I think that old dude caused some memories that I keep buried to surface. Now I think that I should have kicked him until my leg got tired. And also I saw someone that looks exactly like someone from my past and I almost went ballistic. That's why I went and got some movies, so I could get out of my head, and I was okay yesterday but today I woke up a complete mess.) Anyway, blah, blah, blah, I'm having a hard time, who cares, life goes on.

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I'm probably the biggest dork on the planet! Ha-Ha. I'm actually nervous about the new season of SGA! I just know that they're gonna kill my boy off. Damn them! Ha-Ha. Well, it was fun while he lasted! Ha-Ha. I know this, they'd better not touch a hair on McKay's head  (or Beckett, or Shepard, or Tayla...)Ha-Ha!

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Well, 'The Cave' waits. I must go explore it!

I rented some movies today:

The Exorcism Of Emily Rose --(It wasn't scary but I was amused!)

The Cave-- (haven't watched it yet)

Four Brothers-- (haven't watched it yet)

2046-- (Ziyi Zhang is in it so you know I had to get it, haven't watched it yet)

Layer Cake-- (I've walked pass this movie for months and I kept saying I wanted to see it but never rented it,so I finally did! Started watching it earlier)

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Some old guy molested me today! I tried to cave in his knee cap but the bastard was stronger then he looked. I feel dirty...He put his butt on me! I don't know why these weird things happen to me all of the time. I've had men touch me inappropriately before but, an old dude putting his butt on me was a first! Ha-Ha! And when I say old, I mean old. Like 'one foot in the grave old.' Now that I think about it his knee was probably artificial. he didn't walk well.

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One of the funniest things I've ever heard in my life:

I'm sitting there watching TCOR with two women, one's 48 the other's 70. On that scene where the female merc is all over Riddick sniffing him and shit and then he opens his eyes

 

me: What was she gonna do?

48 year old: rape him

me: how can a woman rape a man?

70 year old: Easy. Get it up and go at it

 

now the reason this was so hilarious is because the 70 year old is a church going, nearly bible thumping person, so for her to say it was hysterical...This happened a while ago, I was watching an episode of Law and Order SVU, and a guy said he was raped by three women and that's what made me think of this.

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One of the dumbest things I've ever hear in my life:

(The Real World)

MJ: (says something about Mel Gibson)

Sara: I hate him!

MJ:Why?

Sara: He made the Passion Of Christ and it's anti-Semitic. I've had to deal with anti-Semitism all of my life.

MJ: Did you see the Passion Of Christ?

Sara: No. But my friend saw it and she told me all about it.

MJ: (looks at her like she's crazy, then they get into a debate about it)

 

(She's obviously one of those people who is a follower. One of the masses who keeps critics working!)

 

I still don't understand how a movie where a Jew is the hero and the people who follow him are Jews and the chosen people are Jews can be anti-Semitic. Jesus was not a Christian, he was Jewish! I've asked and people get attitudes and roll their eyes, because they can't tell me what part of it was anti-Semitic. You know how interested I am in religion and I just wanted to know what parts were anti-Semitic, but I get no answers.

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Well, I'm off to finish Layer Cake! Bye-Bye! (I stole the whole "Bye-Bye" thing from Mariah Carey. Ha-Ha.)

If I could I'd eat ten pounds of shrimp right now...I get strange cravings! Yesterday I wanted a taco salad, the day before that I wanted some paella...I'm hungry now but I don't want what's in there...Tomorrow I'm going out so I'll probably stop by the store.... As you know I don't have a lot of money so I make my own version of things, using cheaper ingredients. It all tastes the same!... I love Chic-fil-a's chicken salad, but it's about 6 bucks so instead when I want one I go to wendys and order a Caesar side salad and chicken nuggets, cut the nuggets up, over the salad and it taste just as good and for only 2 bucks!

 

Mc Donalds apple salad, I can make it...grapes,apples,walnuts (sugar for the nuts) and vanilla yogurt, it tastes exactly the same! And then you can have it every day for two weeks which equals the same amount one cost!

 

People only call me when they want something and a lot of people call me and ask how to make recipes for cheap!

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I don't know what to do with myself. I was watching 'Suspicion' earlier and didn't finish, maybe I'll go do that. I'm not really depressed or sad, I just get, I don't know because I'm not really lonely either, I just feel stupid, well not stupid in the unintelligent sense, but ... Okay so I want to see 'Hostel' and I don't have anyone to go with and I just feel stupid sitting by myself sometimes... Yeah, what ever, I'm just saying anything now!

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I need to go do something...see ya later (hopefully)

Have you noticed that I've been annoyed about every little thing lately?

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So, Mariah Carey performed on Dick Clark's show last night and this happened

 

person1: Do you see how fat Mariah has gotten?

me: (I look the person up and down because she weighs 220 pounds)

person1: Well, I know I'm fat that's why I can say something

me: that's why you shouldn't say anything

 

See, I told ya! People say things to other people that they feel about themselves. If I decide I want to call people fat I'd first get my ass in the gym and be in amazing shape, and then and only them would I walk around calling someone else fat...People get on my nerves!

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Well, I must go. Monk is on (I love this show! He's a complete mess!)