Weblog of Bobby

Mood: Tired....been up since 6am
Listening to: Something on the Tube..it sucks

I am about 3/4 of the way through another seemingly successful run of one of my favorite hobbies.  I am a smoker of fine meats, to be eaten and enjoyed at Bar-B-Ques, parties, graduations and just because it is there haha.  I have been perfecting the art of smoking with a wood fire, in a large smoker for about a year now.  I have primarily used the cut of beef most commonly known out here as a "Brisket."  It is not necessarily the best portion of the bovine to eat due to its very very high fat content and the fact that the meat can be kind of stringy and down right horrible if you are not careful.  With my friends award winning recipie...and my high ability to use the recipie and smoke the meat properly..we are about 99% accurate in our tasks. 

The purpose for the 12-15 hour odesy (normal cooking time for properly done brisket) is due to the event of Veteran's Day, which is tomorrow here in the United States.  My friend, who provided the awesome recipie, is a veteran..as is my room mate, and my wife Sarah's father can be included also.  My paternal grandfather was a veteran as was my great grandfather.  SO..I am surrounded by those that served our nation over seas and am very proud to be able to assist the veterans and thier families in a small token of my appreciation. 

Mood: Interested
Listening to: ESPN Classic= Notre Dame v. Houston 1979 Cotton Bowl

I am really a big fan of colder weather.   It is nice a crisp outside right now, probably in the 40's or so.  This actually lightens my moods and makes me feel like there is hope of comfort out there haha.  I have picked the wrong part of New Mexico to live in.  I grew up in the Northern part of New Mexico in the southern range of the Rocky Mountains.  The town I call "home" is Cimarron, New Mexico .  I fininshed high school in Springer, New Mexico .  For the first 5 summers after high school (1991 through 1995) I worked at the world famous Philmont Scout Ranch which is the worlds largest youth camp and a high adventer base for the Boy Scouts of America, and actually scouting all over the world.  

  On our days off from Philmont, we would go to all of the local towns and usually end up spending our paychecks on liquid vices and simply enjoying the scenery.  We would visit Eagle Nest , the ski village of Red River the ANOTHER ski village of Angel Fire and most beloved of them all, Taos .  Taos has AWESOME places to eat, they have a nice movie theater and most importantly of all haha..they have a Wal Mart.  This may seem silly and wierd, but most of the northern portion of New Mexico is sparcely populated and the towns that exist are tiny and not large enough for a Wal Mart.  There are plenty of people out there that would not believe that there are places too small for a Wal Mart haha. 

  I will sign off for now, Tristan is doing pretty good, letting the chicken pox and hives run thier course.  Hopefully that whole household will be able to have a restful weekend.   

Mood: Sleepy..if that is a mood
Listening to: A wierd show on A&E

Mood: Kind of spaced....but not quite
Listening to: Sarah Blow Her Nose

  I am experiencing a level of tiredness that I though was reserved for only those that actually did something on a day to day basis haha.  I am about as pooped as a person can be.. I spent a total of about 24 hours in the car over two sittings on my trip to Vegas.  12 hours up there..12 back.  The back part wasnt to bad as I drove through 99% of Arizona while the two party animals slept like logs.  That was probably good because I was not observing the speed limits all that well as I wanted to get home and peruse my life again.  I also missed my beloved Sarah a lot and wanted to get home and see how she like the goodies I brought for her. 

  By far, the coolest part of the trip was when we were eating at Delmonicos Steak House.  Just the fact that we got to eat at a world class place was very very cool...To top it off,  THE MAN....EMERIL LAGASEE WAS THERE....HE WAS IN DA HOUSE.....He didnt come by and ask me "What up Dog" but he was at the table next to us and seemed to be very very nice.  The waiters said he is VERY raraly there and that we were being treated by his presence. 

  I stayed in a very nice hotel, that treated me very well..if I go back to vegas in the next year or two, I will stay there again.  I am going to write more later when I can post photos or a place to view photos from the trip.  I hope you have all had a good start to your week and good luck for the rest of it.

Mood: Scared....Revealing the heart is scary....
Listening to: Hobbs the Cat Tell me He Wants to Hang With Me

 I have heard that someone I know is looking for a few simple things in her life.  Just for the record, I can give her directions.  I know the way to where the Rainbows and Lollipops are in this world.  I can be of kind spirit, beautiful heart, and a way of living that is both quality and quantity.  If I can not provide these...I would shurly die trying.   This is only something to be thought about, and considered over a period of time.  This isnt an offer of a quick fix to a period of life that could have been better, but wasnt as bad as it could have been.  If this journey is decided upon, the trip will be long, involveing, soul searching, and hopefully growing into a love that will not be broken by anyone. 

   I already love her....so some of the trip is planned...In case your wandering, this is not a map that can be sought out on Google, Mapquest or any other search engine.  No one truely  knows the directions due to the complexity of the journey.  For the sake of information, and to show the fact that clarity is being gained on this subject on a daily basis..a few requirements and pre-boarding instructions are required.  This trip will require some stops along the way to fix a heart that has been torn apart by some things that could have been different, but were not.  This trip will require endurance, faith, communication and most importantly, a rebirth of trust that is ver very difficult to rebuild.  Can this trip be doomed from the start?  Yes, but that is the gamble anyone who wants to love someone so much that it hurts to feel like you are going to be with out them will gladly take in order to have even the smallest smidgen of a hope of success. 

Yes, I understand that the trip has been started before without success, but the old cowboy addige of never stopping with your work regardless of how many times you get bucked off would be a good thing to think about here.  The two biggest reasons would be the two products of love, passion, and intamacy known as RLE and TAD.  I love them both so much, and the idea of being with them everyday in the house that I help to build with thier mother would be something that would make me smile eternally.  I think that there is one more try left, when the time is right, when the passengers are prepared, and things fall into place a little.  We dont have to leave tomorrow..but sometime in the future.  Hopefully, the near future as the journeys length is not shortend by time. 

  Does the reality exist that will see the above happen?  Who knows.  The offer is out there, and hopefully after some time, a postive answer will be adorned and welcomed.  I am totally committed to making the road to Rainbows and Lollipops a very definant possibility for both of us.  Take care all...and thanks for reading the mindless dribble of a part time bumbling idiot.