Not in the mood
I am really not in the mood. I have a lot to say but I can't be borthered to type... you know what I mean.
Hubby has been an absolutely nightmare lately. So much so that I actually talked to him about a separation. And of course when he heard that he went all spasmo on me and said that everything will be ok.... yeah yeah. Change the record will ya!!
So he went to see his doctor yesterday and came out saying he felt 100% better and that he knows he will be fine and that we will be fine in the process!
OK... let's see I thought.
Yesterday afternoon I was online and he called and he told me he found my blog.... my other one, the one I have on my MSN profile. I dont write as much on there at all. But I did write a few things and a few things about him too. So I had to go on there and delete it all before he read all the entries!!
I thought: Great. He is gonna give me such a hard time when he's gonna get home tonight! But no. He said he was fine about it. He said 'Not a big deal' I thought 'WOW' maybe he is changing. Good.... time to tell him about Sarah's birthday!
Sarah will be 30 on 23rd January and we have planned to go out for a meal in a local restaurant on the night. It'll be a quiet one cause it's on a Monday night and we are all working the day after so me, Sarah and Donna can have a nice meal together without getting too drunk.
But then Sarah said that she would like to go to a nice cocktail bar on the Saturday night. And when Hubby asked if everybody was invited I said 'eerr.. no... it's just me, Sarah and Donna'
And then it started. He gave me grief because he said I was gonna flirt with strangers and that when I have a few drinks I am out of control etc etc.... I was so outraged that he thinks such thing of me. Like I am a proper slapper when I go out. Who does he think I am!!! How insulting!!!
I told him he was being a complete arse and that he was worrying about something that was not happening. I told him I would behave and not speak to strangers but that was not good enough.
In the end I just sulked and told him his BIG change was very short lived! I told him to fuck off. So there!
Anyway, he apologised....once again and said he will make an extra effort. But as I said before, the clock is ticking and I will not be as forgiving as I have been in the last few years.
2006 is the year where my life will take a turning.... whether it is on the same road, or on a complete different direction is enterely up to him.
Anyway. I hope everybody is ok after the Xmas festivities.
I better go and have a shower. Have a nice weekend everybody!
Mey
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