Mey's Journal

Mood: kinda sad
Listening to: Some crap show on tele

I have not called or emailed my brother since his Tuesday night's call.  I have not contacted my sister again as she has not replied to my email, and I have not called my father to see how he was.

I dont want to cause I know I am only gonna get more upset with whatever they will tell me.  I can only talk to my mother but there again, she knows about my problems with Hubby and, although she supports me and advises me 100% I dont want to have to talk about it today.

So I am not at work cause my tummy and back are killing me (women's trouble...you know what I am talking about).  After dropping Jack to school, I have done some food shopping quickly so I wont have to go out again.  I bought some beautiful white tulips... I am glad they are back.  I love the tulip season!!
So I am home and I thought I could contact either my brother, sister, dad or mum.  But I am like... can't be bothered cause can't talk to any of them cause whatever we'll talk about it's not gonna be nice.  In other word, I am doing ok despite my tummy and I dont want anyone's trouble to bother my day.
How selfish am I!!!

I guess the good thing about this is that I am admitting I am being selfish.  I feel bad about it so I am kinda being punished which in a way makes me feel better about it... Jee... I can talk shite sometimes!!

Let's forget about that.
Last night I watched the two last episodes of LOST (first serie) and it was amazing.  I mean it actually did not tell us much about the island and the whole mystery thing.  It actually added to it and left us in limbo... but only until Spring.  Second serie is starting and I can't wait.

I need a coffee.  So I am gonna make one.
Have a nice Thursday
Mey
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