Mey's Journal

Mood: Feeling Better

Hey everyone!!!
I was so down yesterday.  I was nursing a huge hangover  and with my mum stuff and all I wasn't in the best of mood.  I slept for 3 hours yesterday afternoon which is really unlike me cause I never can sleep in the afternoon.

Anyway, I had a great time with my friend Sam in Friday night... nothing fancy, we just stayed home and drank wine  while our hubbys were talking kite surfing and pretending to be DUDES...lol  At midnight I was dancing in my garden listening to The Cures Best Hits...lol.. What a sight!!

Today we took the kids on the sea front so they could ride their bikes and it was really lovely. Weather was nice and breezy  and it was good to have a bit of fresh air down my lungs!  Now I just came back from the pub where we had lunch with Sam and Simon... but my little one complaint of a tummyache so I went home a little earlier.  He is in bed now and hopefully he will sleep it off.  Hubby is gone with Simon for their third and final kite surfing session.  After that, they are qualified to kite surf anytime they want...  I shall prepare myself to a few lonely Sundays but Sam and I have already planned that whenever they would go kite surfing we would get together with the kids!!

I had an email  from my mum this morning.  It was one of those forwarded email with an address to go to and it was quite nice (here it is if you want to take a look: http://duirwaighgallery.com/inspiration_trailer.htm) .  But I had to reply to that one and asked her "why are you sending me emails like these if you dont wanna speak to me anymore!!!"... I was angry!
Anyway, she replied to say that I was the one not talking to her anymore and that she loved me  to bits cause I was her daughter and that she didnt wanna be in bad terms with me.  She also said that we should never talk about Christian anymore but apart from that she was happy talking to me.
Well.... I CAN'T .... I cannot speak to her when I feel she is ruining her life under my eyes and I feel helpless.  So I am showing her that every single word I told her in my first email I meant them all and I cannot pretend to be alright with her after her being so hard on me when she replied to my first email......  I dont feel ready to talk to her.  Maybe later... maybe in a few days... or weeks... Right now, I can't.
 
To top it all, I had a dream about Karen last night  and she was re-entering my life and we were talking again.  I didnt like that at all and I remember thinking (in my dream) that I wished I had never let her speak to me again... so when I woke up and knew I was still free of her, I felt better!!

Anyway... I gotta read all your blogs .. I am late in doing that and I have a couple of hours before hubby comes home.  So that'll leave plenty of time to deal with you lot....lol

Special Hug to Shell and Jackie for their warm support!!

Have a nice Sunday
Mey
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