19th August
Mood: feeling blue!
It's absolutely pissing down with rain here today 
and I must say... it's quite good cause all my flowers in my garden were gasping for some water and since we have a water shortage here and are not allowed to hose our plants
, the rain is very welcome!
I have a worry today
. My mother has not replied to my email 
and I know she has been online cause I saw her on MSN IM. She must be really mad at me for writing to her the way I did. I wasn't rude or anything... but I just said to her what I thought of her boyfriend and said that she was putting him before her children and that I would never do that to mine...
I think she may think I went too far.... either that or she is ashamed of herself and plays the ostrich game 
... burry her head in the sand until the storm has passed.
I may write to her again to ask her if she is ok with me and that I am sorry I had to write all the things I wrote but that I needed to tell her... I hate being a hypocrite so smiling at her and saying I am happy for her would be so wrong for me...
And YES.. I know that when you love someone you gotta support them
that but he is treating her like a door mat and I cannot just stand by and watch!
I mean.... I was reading about Shell and her brother and I feel for her. Shell would love for her bro to live nearer to her but she supports him cause she knows he is happy despite missing him so much....
I would support my mother if I felt the guy was right for her and if she was over the moon happy. But she ain't... and many times she is very down and cries
. SO I cannot just stand by and say nothing and sometimes truth hurts... and she had to know....
Right??!!
... what do you guys think... should I have just shut up!!!
I am home all day today. I have a mountain of laundry to do
but I may well come back later and talk some more...
And I will also take the time to read some more blogs.... Some of you are so funny 
it really brighten my day LOL
See ya later!
Mey
-x-
I think you were right in telling your momma how you feel. It isn\'t good to hold that stuff in! I think your idea of writing her again is good. It could be that she may have needed some time to think things over and to find a way to digest all you said. She probably knows that you are right about him, but she may not know how to fix it. Just my 2 cents. Mahahaha! I am sorry that you are getting so much rain now. It seems like everyone is. I woke up to gloom and rain. Heehee. But like you said our gardens and grass need it!!
Much love and laughter,
Teri\'05 :) xoxoxo
P.S. I hope you have a great weekend and I hope it works out with your momma. Bye! ;)
I wrote to my mum and said I hope she wasn\'t too mad at me. My intention were not for her to be angry at me. But I said that if she was angry then I would understand and respect her silence. The ball is in her court now. I just have to wait!!!
*grin and luving*
Mey ;o)
Rain...did you say rain? I hate it...It did rain here and it says on my weather pixie it is raining....it isn\'t...oh well. The other day it rained over an inch in like half an hour....grrrrr
Keep your head high and SMILE!!!!
*grins*
Jackie
*Big Smile*
I just wanna say a couple of things. Number one: Im very proud of you for being upfront and honest with your mother. She\'s your mother and she\'ll never stop loving you. You might\'ve opened her eyes and she just might be thinking. She also might think you\'re mad at her. There could be a million reasons why ya\'ll aint talking. Just dont let that [silence] go on for too long. I know you love your mom, and maybe saying that and reitterating [sp?] that would help. She might feel very insecure right now. Number two: I seriously can not stand my brothers girlfriend...at all. She treats him like crap. I\'ve just realized that there\'s nothing I can say or do to make him not want to be with her. He puts her before his family. That sucks and that hurts really bad. However, that\'s his decision. I can handle it because hes my brother and he still makes time for me, every now and then. If it was my mother, being as close as we are, I couldn\'t take it. I would feel exactly what you feel and I would\'ve done exactly what you have done. Dont feel guilty at all and don\'t apologize for what you said - you can apologize for hurting her feelings. Maybe if you two could just talk you might be able to explain why you said the things you did. Sometimes hearing the voice, the tone, and the way you say it helps moreso than reading a non-emotional email or blog or whatever. =)
Thats just my opinion. You hang in there. You\'re doing a really good job. Just keep strong, keep that head up of yours and know that you\'re being honest. Honesty is a virtue that not many people on this earth have anymore. That\'s very admirable. It shows that you\'re a strong woman. You keep that up, missy!
*hugs n luvins*
~ Shel
ps - love the banner. it looks so cute!
*sigh*