Weblog of LittleBeetle_82

Mood: Very sad

Isn't it amazing how just one day can change everything?

Firstly, my car went in for its end of warranty service, that wasn't too bad and cost $240, BUT it needs new tyres right away (I didn't think they were that bad but apparently they are badly scrubbed on the inside) so I'm looking at at least $448 (including a wheel alignment and nitrogen) to put new tyres on it.  That was money I hadn't planned on spending on it, I thought (hoped!!!) I wouldn't need to replace them before 8 months!!!!  Then next week the rego and insurance are due - all up over $1000 there.  Of course I knew it was coming and have plenty in savings for it all but it still sucks!  I was rather unhappy about that, then...

I lost my job today.  Not through anything I did, it's because my boss isn't making enough money to support himself and pay me.  He's a great person to work for and I know he feels terrible about it.  I'm pretty devastated - I love my job and most of the people I work with (I found out this morning that Betty is actually leaving and I was elated, thinking that things there would be great with her gone).  Now I have to start all over again.  At least my boss has said he will keep me on and pay me for another 8 weeks (despite the contract I signed saying he only needs to give me one week's notice) until I find another job which is great, and he said he will do anything he can to help me get a new job - he doesn't think I'll have any problems finding something else.  I sure hope not.  I keep feeling like this is a nightmare that I will wake up from soon.  It's strange that just last week, I was blissfully happy with not a care in the world.  But it could be worse.  Luckily for me I still live at home, I own my car and don't owe any money anywhere, but it was a huge shock to the system to hear this news.  Even still, I'm glad for the time I've been in this job (nealry 8 months), and the people I've met, I'm glad I got out of my last job when I did, even though this job didn't work out for me.  I don't regret any of it.  I came home from work early because my boss said I could if I didn't feel up to staying for the last 45mins.  Of course I didn't feel up to it, I was bawling and panicking!!  And in no shape to deal with any customers, answer the phone or confirm any appointments!  So I came home and cried!!!  It didn't make things better, but it needed to happen.  I haven't had a good cry for a long time, especially not for something this big!!  Well, I've never lost a job before, so it was a new thing for me!

Then I find out a bomb type device was found in the basement of my sister's work building, how scary!!!!  I'm frightened for her, what is the world coming to?  Whether the bomb was a fake (they aren't sure) is irrelevant, it's a threat nonetheless.  I pray every night for my family and those I care about, asking God to keep them safe.  I hope He's listening.  I'm not even a religious person, but I like to believe there's someone up there watching over everyone.  Sometimes it certainly doesn't feel like it, especially with all the really terrible stuff happening in the world at the moment.

I went to the florist tonight to organise for some flowers to be sent to Mum tomorrow, I hope they're nice!  I asked for lots of yellow because that's her favourite colour.  It's to thank her for running my car over to get serviced, then wasting half her day waiting for it to be finished, then bringing it back to me.  She is a true gem, I really have an amazing family.

Anyway, I think it's time for me to head off and try to get some sleep.  It will be a hard day for me tomorrow.

Take care all.