so you think you are emo??
Listening to: Alkaline Trio
I wonder why my last entry didn't show up?....oh, well....
Something happend today in one of my classes that really sort of put a damper on the rest of the day...or at least sort of pissed me off for a little while...I won't give them the satisfaction of ruining my WHOLE day...
It was just my European History class...nothing really going on except discussion on the assignment, when the professor ( and i use that term loosely since he's not that much older than me....maybe late twenties....) starting talking about something and somehow the conversation turned to the topic of the so-called "emo kids"
I don't consider myself to be the stereotypical "emo"....and personally I hate that term and thinks its really derogatory and is just used on kids who aren't like everyone else (or something to that effect...)...but I do sort of sport the oh-so-trendy bangs over the eye ( or at least I try to depending on whether my hair cooperates or not...)...I also listen to a lot of the music that seems to be what we emo kids listen to (or so I've been told)...my wardrobe is a mix of everything from punk to preppy...so thats not really a giveaway...
Anyway...i feel like I'm losing the topic here...so...he made a snide remark, some wrist cutting gestures...and the class sort of erupts into this discussion about how weird....mean....dark...and loserish (not a real word, i know) the emos are....
I really feel offended....plus, he sort of was looking at me when he quickly put it out there that he "doesn't want to offend any emo kids who may be in this class..."...maybe its just my imagination.....but should I feel so put out like I did today?
I don't think of myself as a dark person...I know I'm not one of the shiny, pretty, happy people that seem to be floating around this damn campus everyday....and I have a pretty cynical view of the world....but I don't wish to kill myself...or cut myself....or anything like that....I like to listen to music that means something to me...that I can relate to...that has EMOtion (HA! thats all that the term means anyway....)...SO WHAT??
Why does that automatically make me a bad person....i didn't do anything to those people and they go and basically make fun of me....while I'm sitting in the same room....I don't care if people talk about me behind my back...but I would rather not have to hear it....
Emo is not a life style...its not even a clothing/fashion style (though it has become something like that unfortunately....)....what it really means, to me, is just that you are human enough to feel emotions...to feel pain, sorrow....these emotions are what make you a human being...they are what make you ALIVE
Maybe us "emo kids" are the only ones out there who are really alive....
