Summer....
Listening to: Bayside
It is 95 degrees outside...and 84 degrees at my computer desk...I've got three fans simultaneously "cooling" the room down, but to no avail...well, I should say i HAD three fans, since one broke last night ...the only room that has AC is downstairs...I should be there...
I hate this weather....I have trouble breathing...my lungs hurt whenever I go outside...yuck
Break is going by so fast, school's been done for over a month...I only have two months left! Well, that sounds like a lot, but this month's just flying by....arg
I've been reading...since schools ended I've read....um....::counts::: 9 books, several of which have been fairly long...about 500 pgs or more...I've gained my love of reading back! It feels so great to just spend a day lounging around on my bed or outside in the hammock...on my good days I can clear almost 150 pages...
I don't know...I'm feeling a little lost...maybe this is the time in my college career when I start to doubt my motivations for studying what i'm studying...I think about what i would LIKE to do....what my parents say I SHOULD do....what I WANT to do....it's all ending up like a gigantic whirlpool swirling around in my head...around and around and around...
Stuff is happening....things are changing....
My job probably won't be around much longer...I've been hearing we're closing in Sept......or Dec....or Jan....nothing is concrete, I suppose....I do not want to start at a new place...I do not want to work in retail anymore, and that's all there is around here....internships for my career wouldn't pay anything...and I need money just to be able to get to school...
One of my best friends is leaving to go to school in Florida...I want to try and visit during the school year...but if i have a new job i probably won't be able to get any time off...I feel like we'll never see each other again...or that she'll change and nothing will be the same....
This is the last summer of innocence....it feels like it....this is the last summer of family vacations....drive-in movies....county fairs....concerts....theme parks....trips to NYC....sleep-overs....like this time next year we'll have all aged 10 years and not even recognize each other anymore...
I want to bottle up this summer....and make it last for as long as I can
