Strange...
Death has always been on my mind....
Not like I'm thinking about how to kill myself....it's more about what happens to you when you die...
This has come up because today in the obit section of the local paper there was this familar picture...someone I RECOGNIZED....
A girl I had gone to high school with....
It's just strange...death is supposed to come to people you don't know...or those who are much, much older...
Knowing that someone my age can die is surreal....thinking about how if I died right now...what would happen to me? What would happen to my family and friends?
I remember when, during senior year, two kids had died in a car crash...one of them I had also known...not very well, but still we had been in classes together...
This same feeling has returned...
I had never really talked to her....I don't think I EVER talked to her...but i definitely knew who she was....though that may have only been one way....she was one of the more popular people in my high school...though isn't that the way it always goes???
Whenever you she a write up about some tragic teen's death...you always see the phrases... "well-loved by all"...."popular"..."bright"....etc...you never see something like..." no one really knew them"..."loner"...."not very social"....etc...
I'd always wondered that, when I was still in high school, and if I died...even if it wasn't from some freak accident...would there have been a front page headline proclaiming how I was loved by everyone...popular...always surround by friends....would my funeral have been populated members of the school community....???
I highly doubt that...and if it was like that, that would have been a complete fallacy...
Its just weird to see a young face surrounded by pictures of people in their 70s and 80s in the same section...and it just reminds you that she will never get to see those ages....
...and you can only hope that you are able to make it....
