Its all greek to me...
Mood: bored
Listening to: Manson
I have been invited to join the "Society"....ooh, top secret! or is it perhaps pop secret? I've been having these weird cravings for popcorn...lol...ok, ANYWAY...
Its the National Society of Leadership and Success, called Sigma Alpha Pi....in layman's terms, this means that I've been invited to join the honor society because of my grades...whoo hoo...???
I'm considering joining, but its a whole process and you have to meet certain requirements, PARTICIPATE in meetings and events, and pay 65 bucks to just be considered for a full membership....is this worth it? I don't have anything to prove to these people, who don't know anything about me....if they did, they would realize that "leadership" is definitely not one of my strengths...
In this letter I received it states that being a member of the society has many perks...job advantages...."networking" possibilities (god, how I hate that term...networking....its sounds so pretentious to me...), plus I'll have access to "success" coaches...yay for me....
I don't think I feel like doing this....but, I do need to start thinking about my future...right??
I mean, its what i'm supposed to be doing while im in college....right??
I should be figuring everything out for myself....RIGHT?????
I still feel like a kid here....i don't want to be burdened by these thought of growing up?!?!? I want to be young forever!!!! I want to experience youth before I have to go suffocate in an office somewhere....I feel like I haven't had any real FUN....like I have been sitting alone in my room for the last 18 years....hiding in the shadows...
Of course, this is EXACTLY what I've been doing....I haven't gone to any parties....never have taken a drink....never smoked ANYTHING (which i still don't plan on doing)....I've been so fucking sheltered...and it was totally my choice...I hid from anyone who showed a bit of interest in me....I ignored those who wished to talk to me...
Why did I waste my life? Why did I do this to myself?... and now I have to suffer the consequences....loneliness and anger
Fuck this...and fuck the "society"....this is all just bullshit...
