Listening to: Bayside
This time next week= School out for winter break...meaning my brain can turn to mush for a whole month and a half...
I'm thinking I might transfer this blog over to another website...blogigo is kinda creeping me out, what with most of the updated blogs deal with weird sexual themes and sex toys now...not exactly my cup of tea...
Now I'll have the time to do it..once I finish the next four days of HELL.....this weekend alone I have to study for my last two finals (which I have not started) and pretty much pull a ten page research paper out of my ass (with the appropriate rough draft attachment...arg) I really should be working on that right now...but I figure "Hey...I got three pages done...time for a blogging break!" i think I'm finished for tonight anyway...i'll work on it mainly on Sunday night (its due on monday)
Seriously...this semester I have put EVERYTHING off 'til the last minute....I never used to be like this ....I'm usually the kind of person to have a paper completed WEEKs before its due (not hours) I just do not care anymore...I have no more passion for learning....I hate my school....I hate everyone....blah,blah,blah,angst,angst,angst...
My parents are starting to bug me...what else is new...i leave one letter out concerning a "field trip" of sorts taking place during break and when I say I really do not feel like going they jump on me...saying that i'm throwing my college years away, that I'm not concerned enough with my educational experiences.....etc...
Ok...first thing...it is one trip that I would have to PAY for...to go down to the city three days in a row....left on my own (no buddy system here)...and sit through hours upon hours of historical lectures....no THANK you
Yes...I am a history major...you could say that I love learning about it...but its during break!! I have spent the last four freakin months learning about history...writting insanely long papers on it...cramming 200 years of information into my brain until it feels like its going to burst out through my ears (not including the other 1000 years from my previous ancient civ classes)...I need a rest...recharge the batteries so to speak...
I don't really hang out with any of the other students from the dept...so i would be either going through this by myself (and I don't feel comfortable walking around NYC...I've only been there three times in my entire life)....or tagging awkwardly along with the other kids (NO)
I'm tired of being by myself on these things...I need to find more people out there who share the same interests...few if any of my friends really care that much about history...most of them are more into the math and sciences...so i feel very alone sometimes...