Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

1. Leaving for vacation in less than 12 hours...

2. Booked my  October flight to Florida after work today...pretty fucking expensive but I think it will be worth it

3. I need to pack now...

Gone For Two Whole Weeks!!!!  WHOOOOO!!!

2 days!!

I am so close....

TIME!!  MOVE FASTER!!!

Listening to: Flobots

Almost vacation-time!  Whoo!

I can make it three more days, right????

I'm in a pretty good mood...there's just a few little annoyances that prevent me from being in a GREAT mood.....

Listening to: The Kooks

Nothing ruins the summer mood more than looking up the textbook requirements for your fall classes....

Oh my god...looking at how much the campus book store is charging....absolutely ridiculous!!

All of my profs except one have put up their lists...which always annoys me...why do they wait until the last minute? especially when this school doesn't ever seem to have a lot of used versions and I end up having to buy a brand-fuckin'-new copy for twice the price. Its also always the class that I end up never actually using the text....

However, the silver lining behind the cloud: I found every single book (so far) on ebay for a whole lot cheaper....one text that would have cost me 65 bucks I found for only .75 cents!! I wonder if its even the right one....but I guess I'll just have to wait and see....

I feel like there's so many things tugging at me....things that require money....my upcoming vacation....tuition and textbooks....my Oct. trip to Florida...the impending death of my wallet due to the fact that I'm going to have to start driving to school every day again....AHH!!! I have to start saving more!!!

Listening to: LostProphets

I really wish i could win the lottery...why does everything have to be so goddamn expensive?!?!?

I'm trying to plan a trip to Florida for the fall to visit a friend who is going to school down there...the flights are so expensive!!

Seriously? $250 to take a 2 1/2 hour flight? WHAT THE HELL?

Listening to: Alkaline Trio

Today I went to the supermarket...

I saw the most amazing cake in the bakery section...

Have you ever seen a cake that just makes you want to just smush your face in it...just for the sheer joy of it?

That is what I saw...it was CALLING to me...

It was a ridiculous neon blue and yellow color...it just looked so lush...I wanted it so bad....It was almost like I was lusting after it, as crazy as that sounds....

It's like you desire something...but you know that when you finally get it, it won't be as good as you thought that it would be...I guess there are a lot of things that could fall into this category, but right now the CAKE was all that I wanted

Cake...fucking cake....what is wrong with me?

I have more emotional attachment to a fucking desert than anything else....

Listening to: Avril Lavigne

ok...all other plans for today have fallen through....no waterpark/theme park/ aquarium/ or even a train ride down to the city appealed to a certain *someone*...so everyone's coming over to my house...  :::sigh::: god, there's nothing to do here!!!

In order to fulfill my wish to at least leave the state for a little while....we're going over state lines in order to buy some fireworks....well, not real ones, but we want to at least get some sparklers....or something that is pretty and colorful...at least I can pretend I left this shitty place for a little while....however people are coming back to my place....and probably will just end up watching TV for the rest of this goddamn day....

I can't even describe how mad i was yesterday when *someone* decided they just didn't want to go to the waterpark that we had being planning on going to for a few weeks....all I'll say is that their excuses were lame...and that they are just so used to whining for a while and getting what they want...I just didn't have any more energy to argue any more so....I caved and invited people over for a BBQ and to go swimming....

Now...I must stay positive and tell myself that it will be fun today.....luckily I had just cleaned my room...or i would have been greatly embarrassed....

Listening to: Alkaline Trio

Treated myself to a brand-new CD yesterday....on the day it actually came out into stores....whoa, I'm crazy!!! :)

Agony and Irony by Alkaline Trio....I like it quite a bit, though I was a little upset that they changed their sound a little bit....contrary to popular belief I actually liked their more "moody" albums (Crimson, Good Mourning)....though I'm not saying that this new CD is shit...the first four songs are the best, in my opinion...while the rest of the album is.....corny (I suppose that's the best word for it....)

I've also really gotten into the music of Charlotte Sometimes....she just sent out her debut album Waves and the Both of Us....

Her stuff is certainly a lot different from what i usually listen to...but I guess maybe my tastes are changing...just a little though....it's funny to think that I've gone from hardcore shit like Poison the Well to the pretty voices of Kate Nash and Charlotte Sometimes....in fact there was a time when I absolutely hated female singers (their voices...not personally  haha)...but now I really like listening to female fronted bands such as No Doubt, Flyleaf, Paramore, the Distillers (well....), 1997, Garbage...etc...

Its funny how people can changes....I went from being a 10 yr old who absolutely loved the Spice Girls, Britney Spears, all the freakin' boy bands that were around in '97-'98....to the 12 yr old who was obsessed with blink-182, Green Day, Sum 41, Good Charlotte, etc...moving ahead to the 15 yr old who would only listen to LostProphets and Weezer...16 yrs was Green Day all over again....17yrs Bad Religion and other '80s punk rockers, plus I discovered the wonders of the so-called "emo" rock.....18yrs- present I feel like I'm forever going to be stuck in the era of '90s alternative rock....plus all the pop-punk that I "refused" to listen to when I was a mere child of 13  (I already caught the hypocrisy here.... )

I don't know why people feel they need to define themselves by the music they listen to....I know that in high school its just so darn important to hang with people who look, think, and listen to the same music as you...but even after you find this to be sorta true....many of my friends think that my music taste is weird...i sort of freaked them out when they got into my car and i had forgotten that i had been blasting Poison the Well before.....suffice to say they were put off by the sound that assaulted their ears when i turned the ignition

It doesn't really bother me....but i always feel that i need to be careful with what music I listen to when its my turn to drive....its like they don't think that i should listen to what i do because of how i look....its stupid, really....

Well...I suppose that people can be stupid...even if they don't realize it...

Listening to: No Doubt

I'm tired of making plans and having them cancelled....

I'm tired of people being so cautious....

I'm tired of lame excuses....

I'm just plain tired....

Why do I always feel like I gave to practically beg people to hang out with me...its like we make plans....someone decides that maybe we shouldn't go...and I always try and convince them otherwise...

I know I'm not very good at hiding disappointment....but why can't people just take a fuckin' chance....????

"Oh...it'll be too crowded...."

So what? Its fucking summer...everyplace is crowded.....

I was planning on being out of the house for  an entire DAY...I made sure my schedule was going to be clear...preparations were already fucking made!

ARG....I hate everyone right now...so I should probably stop writing this and cool off for a second or two....