Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

WHY THE FUCK DON'T MY ENTRIES APPEAR!!!!!??????

 

edit: the one below is what I was complaining about....oops  :P

Listening to: 99 Red Balloons

Waaaaaaaaaaalllll-E!!

My new catchphrase is now complete....

the movie on Friday was ok...not one of pixar's best. but it was definitely a cute story and held hidden messages about obesity and the dangers of relying too much on machinery...ah, now that's kid-friendly fare....

After work today I finally dragged myself down to the department store to get myself a swimsuit that I wouldn't be embarrassed to be seen in while in the eyes of the public...after what seemed like an ETERNITY (actually about an hour) I finally found something that was comfortable and conservative enough that wouldn't have me constantly worrying about flashing some poor unsuspecting soul at the waterpark...what I really was just going to do was buy a pair of guys board shorts and try and find a nice tankini top that matched....well, I found a nice pair of trunks that i liked, even though i got some weird stares while I was perusing that men's section...perhaps it didn't help that I kept walking up to the mirror that was there and holding the shorts up to see how long they were on me...maybe they thought i had a boyfriend of similar-sized proportions....hah!

The top was the problem...and the fact that nothing was where it was supposed to be in this stupid store...I found one that I really liked and matched well with the bottoms...but i couldn't find the right size...and I searched every single rack twice over...that made me so mad!!

Eventually I found those swim bottoms that looked like shorts and a top that sorta matched....and I got out of there as fast as I could after that....40 bucks for a friggin' swim suit....

Fourth of July festivities are coming up soon...I hope to be going to a water/theme park with some friends...hence the need for some appropriate swimming attire..plus I'm going to the shore for a part of my family's vacation and I gots to look good for the dudes, yo!!...yeah.....right....I'm sure I look super sexy hanging out with my mother and father on the beach.....oh yeah!! 

ah summer....stop going by so fast....

Listening to: Aiden

Seriously, what's up with that title?

I really have nothing to do while i wait until 3 so i can go to my dentist appointment....one that has been cancelled and changed so many times in just a week...

I'm really missing the stucture of school and (don't tell anybody) I sorta can't wait for the fall semester to start....last fall was kinda weird for me, awkward is probably the better word to describe it....and I want to have a good one this year...plus my 20th birthday is in the fall and I can't wait for that  :)

I miss writing papers....I miss putting in the research-time....I miss spending the whole day trying to stretch out 3 pages worth of information into 8 by adding long words from my trusty thesaurus...I miss checking out books from the library a whole month before i even have to start THINKING about writing the paper and letting them sit on my desk for that entire month, the whole time having to renew them several times, just so that i can tell myself that I'm being a good girl for working on my papers early....

I miss walking around campus with my headphones in, my arms full of textbooks, my coat and scarf wrapped around me, and breezing past the visiting high school kids nervously walking around during the visitors weeks...I know I was once one of them myself, but I like feeling grown-up  :P

I miss my bangs....during the school-year i like to grow them out and use them as "blinders" so I can concentrate on my work.....though it probably doesn't help with my social interaction.....hmmm...

I miss driving down to school every morning, my thermos full of hot coffee, my tunes blasting as I cruise down the interstate...though I suppose if gas hits 6 bucks a gallon I'm not going to like that as much anymore....55 to stay alive...and save gas

I even miss the first day of class when everyone sits in the seat that, according to the unwritten laws of college classrooms, will be their assigned seat for the rest of the semester even though the professor rarely takes attendance, thus not requiring assigned seating.....and people avoid sitting near me....thereby leaving what I like to call the circle of seclusion: the desks to the left and right, front and behind are empty until those bad apples who show up late are forced to sit near my presence.... :/

Whatevs....

No crazy city today...what else is new???

Looked up my tuition for school today....really just wanted to get an idea about how much I was going to have to take out and my eyes popped out of their sockets....this fucking school has raised tuition $2000!!!!!!!!! I am completely flabbergasted.....while I did receive a letter a month or so ago stating how they were only going to raise the price $35 per credit....making it approx. 100 per class (since most classes count for 3 credits) making it roughly $500 more a semester (since i have to take 15 credits or 5 classes to be considered to full-time student)..now i'm a bit confused as to where the additional $1000 come from....

There was absolutely no mention of a raise this much...the damn letter was a load of crap...and i'm not going to take this much longer...

For the fall semester of 2008, my junior year in college...

My tuition has increased....

The price of my textbooks has increased...

Gas price increases are ruining my commute....

My current job is ending at the end of the summer....and no one is hiring right now so i can't even try and establish new employment before the new school year...

I

Am

Screwed

Listening to: Jimmy Eat World

Since apparently I have nothing better to do on a Saturday night I'm now going to re-hash what I've done this week...

Monday:worked

Tuesday:watched movies

Wednesday:worked

Thursday:worked

Friday:went to book sale and bought a shit-load of entirely random books that I doubt I'll actually go through...just because I could

Saturday (today):worked

Sunday (tomorrow):working....hey! I can see into the future...I always believe in futures...

Actually I may be having some actual fun tomorrow, right after getting through six mind-numbing hours at work....ah, just thinking about it sorta pisses me off...there's this new place at the mall called "crazy city"....wait maybe its "party city"...."crazytown"??...well, I don't actually remember the name of it...but its this completely indoor theme park of sorts...supposedly there's ton of rides, games, mini-golf...tons of crap like that....and I think we may go there after work...or maybe we'll just go to the movies....ANYTHING would be fine with me...I have got to get out of this house....I haven't been anywhere this week except home and work....

Well, that's not actually true...yesterday I did visit the FDR house and library...i love living so close to it, however since none of my friends really want to go there, I have to wait until one of my parents has off in order to drg them down there....I would go there by myself....but i think that would just look a little sad...maybe that's just me...

going there made me realize how much historical information I have crammed into my brain.....the entire time I was there I was acting like this tourguide-on-crack...on every god-damn exhibit I was explaining its historical significance to my mother...now she probably thinks i'm insane...like for the section that dealt with FDR's involvement in the Great Depression era I was going on and on about how the American markets were affected by the world-wide depression that had occured during the 1920s...how American isolationism  wouldn't protect the economy forever....the appearance of so-called "Hoovervilles"....blah,blah,blah....oh man...I do this all the time....

i don't know if I'm coming off as just intelligent and knowledgeable...or if I just sound like a complete asshole....

Listening to: Bayside

It is 95 degrees outside...and 84 degrees at my computer desk...I've got three fans simultaneously "cooling" the room down, but to no avail...well, I should say i HAD three fans, since one broke last night ...the only room that has AC is downstairs...I should be there...

I hate this weather....I have trouble breathing...my lungs hurt whenever I go outside...yuck

Break is going by so fast, school's been done for over a month...I only have two months left! Well, that sounds like a lot, but this month's just flying by....arg

I've been reading...since schools ended I've read....um....::counts::: 9 books, several of which have been fairly long...about 500 pgs or more...I've gained my love of reading back! It feels so great to just spend a day lounging around on my bed or outside in the hammock...on my good days I can clear almost 150 pages...

I don't know...I'm feeling a little lost...maybe this is the time in my college career when I start to doubt my motivations for studying what i'm studying...I think about what i would LIKE to do....what my parents say I SHOULD do....what I WANT to do....it's all ending up like a gigantic whirlpool swirling around in my head...around and around and around...

Stuff is happening....things are changing....

My job probably won't be around much longer...I've been hearing we're closing in Sept......or Dec....or Jan....nothing is concrete, I suppose....I do not want to start at a new place...I do not want to work in retail anymore, and that's all there is around here....internships for my career wouldn't pay anything...and I need money just to be able to get to school...

One of my best friends is leaving to go to school in Florida...I want to try and visit during the school year...but if i have a new job i probably won't be able to get any time off...I feel like we'll never see each other again...or that she'll change and nothing will be the same....

This is the last summer of innocence....it feels like it....this is the last summer of family vacations....drive-in movies....county fairs....concerts....theme parks....trips to NYC....sleep-overs....like this time next year we'll have all aged 10 years and not even recognize each other anymore...

I want to bottle up this summer....and make it last for as long as I can