Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

Listening to: REM

What is the point in going to the hospital to have a life-saving procedure done when all it does is make everything worse? You were walking around, laughing, working only a few days ago and now you are a lifeless shell...barely able to recognize your own family..lying in a hospital bed with absolutely no dignity whatsoever..drugged up so much that you can't even speak, just so that you stay in your bed...how can you get better when they won't even let you open your eyes?

 

I HATE TAXES!!

The government can just go and fuck itself....

There...that accomplished nothing...

It's been an eventful Saturday here in my small neck of the woods...it didn't start out that way for me...but, oh, how things changed when I got to work...

My pharmacy is in a small little shopping plaze and the main store is a supermarket...well, apparently there was a big fire there last night and the entire building is pretty much destroyed! Luckily, the Pharmacy is located on the opposite end of the plaze, but seeing the aftermath of the flames was so surprising...

I live close by to my job and early this morning, around 12:30 or so, there was a crazy amount of fire trucks and emergency vehicles going down the road...well, i guess I know where they went...

Its weird to think that a place that I'm so used to going to and seeing practically every day isn't there anymore..I have to walk past it every time I go to work, plus when we're hungry during the long work night, someone usually pops in to gets snacks...no more popping and snacking...I guess

I don't know...I've never really experienced a "loss" like this before...is it really a loss? I think so...I think about all the people who worked there being out of a job...I see a lot of them as they come into the pharmacy...I've grown up in this town and this store has ALWAYS been there...its stupid, I know...but I have some sort of fond childhood connection of going there with my mom and...???

I don't know...just some dramatic events to shake this sleepy town awake I guess...

Mood: tired

5 weeks left in the semester...oh, I can't wait until I'm done for the summer...and I MEAN done...I'm not bothering with summer courses anymore...they are just too expensive and I definitely do not want to go all the way down to campus everyday...I mean, my summer vacations are almost gone....2 more years, and that'll be IT!!!  I'll have to find myself a real job....or at least start grad school and live at home for another 4 years  :)

There really are so many possibilites in life...I'm not usually this optimistic, but the thought came to me in the school library today, of all places...while I was working on one of five large research papers that are due in the next few weeks...I've sort of figured out my topic (Immigration policies of the states) and I was trying to found a really good source to get what I needed...and it was here that I realized...there are so many different ways I could construct this paper...everything was open to interpretation and I just could choose something and run with it...

So...it was here too I though..."Hey! I can apply this to life in general..can't I?"

I don't know why it took me so many years to learn this...and I consider myself to be a fairly intelligent human being...

The future is mine! My present job will no longer be here come next fall semester...a Walgreens Pharmacy has decided that our little pharmacy isn't enough and is taking up residence in the same plaza, thereby kicking us out....its sad...so I will have a new job (hopefully) by the time school starts up again....I can work in a completely different place...I don[t have to sell lotto anymore...won't have to deal with the hassle of counting pills...maybe I'll work at a Petco next...who knows??!!

New semester always means new classes...and now that I've completely finished up my core...I'm free to take classes that only apply to my major..and I need about 15 more credits in order to gain my degree which is about 5 classes in either history or (I think ) a few in Poli Sci....so, Thats Exciting!!  even though my school has a crappy amount of upper Historys, they mostly just have a lot of freshmen classes which (obviously) won't count because I've already taken them...

This summer...going on vacation..again...and I'm responsible for planning it...again...because of that I'm thinking we're going to Gettysburg!! Whoo hoo...I mean, who wouldn't want to visit battlefields from the bloodiest war even fought on American soil??!! Actually..that sounds really cool...but...meh, thats just me, i suppose...

Changes and Possibilites...one of my closest friends is leaving for Florida in the beginning of August...college program that's down there...oh man, this is one change I'm not sure I'm ready for...I've never had many friends, nor have I been able to keep them for vey long... this is gonna be tough...we're already trying to plan me flying down there somethime during the Fall...but with school and work, I have no idea when that'll happen...not really looking foward to that...

its late...and I still have some work to do...

What's going to happen?