Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

Listening to: Alkaline Trio

I'm a mail junkie...that's it, I've finally come clean...I love getting mail...whenever I see that white (or whatever color of the rainbow) envelope with MY name on it, a euphoric feeling comes over me...suddenly all is right with the world and the sun is smiling down...I happily stack up those envelopes and rush upstairs to sit at my desk and open them with a aura of importance...like they do in the movies, complete with a shiny letter-opener...only to discover....

A. The ----(name) Society would like me to donate to their cause

B. I'm pre-approved for (name) card

C. The Army/Navy feels I would be a perfect fit

D. ----Magazine would like me to renew my subscription

Now, i'm going to tackle these disappointments one by one...

A. Charity....it's all well and good and I do donate a couple of times a year, usually coinciding with me suddenly having a little extra money (i.e. Birthday or Christmas) and I am glad to do it...up to a point....but when I get a letter every month complete with a pic of a kitty with half a face or of a starving child in Somalia complete with the flies on the face, I get a little discouraged...where does my money go? I think it goes more to the costs of mailing out a letter every month to every single person who has ever donated  EVER...but I'm sure i'm probably wrong...

B. Credit Cards...ha ha...the funniest one I've received so far came in the mail today...I am officially pre-approved to receive a Home Depot card! I think I've only been in a Home Depot twice in my life and I've never personally bought anything in there...so, how in the hell did they get my name and address???  that is the question....there must be an alarm that goes off in the offices of the credit card companies when someone turns 18...because ever since that time came I have been bombarded with these stupid offers...Visa, Discover, Mastercard, LL Bean, Home Depot, and tons of others have said that they would be delighted to give me their cards...have me use them...and then charge me an exorbitant interest rate that will keep me under their thumb for years and years....it truely is wonderful!!

C. Army/Navy...let's just say the thought of my going through boot camp is a laugh...I can barely do a push-up...can't run for my life...and olive drab is not a good color for me....plus the fact that I can't see myself mindlessly following orders to go into battle and die for a completely wrong cause...what? did I just get political...lets get away from this...

D. Magazines...I've subscribed to several mags over the years...those school fundraisers made them so easy to renew...but since I've left the safetly and comfort of public school I'm down to two mags....Rolling Stone and Alternative Press...and I keep up with my subs pretty well...but do i really have to extend my subscription for another 3 years?? even though I just renewed for two more?? I think not...

Its a funny thing living in a society that either wants your money...or your life...

Ok....that was a little harsh...but if I was to base it on the mail that I receive in a week...this is what its telling me....all I'm good for to them is money to supply the various interests (either a charity...credit card company...or even entertainment magazines) or another body to train, desensitize, and indoctrinate

What a wonderful world...

Listening to: Senses Fail

Just got back from my long weekend away...instead hittin' the ol' college spots in Palm Beach or Miami,I went on a nice little family excursion to the mountains...complete with a cabin with no running water and about 3 feet of snow that proved to be too much for the truck...so we had to drag everything up the mile and half long driveway.... :)

Ah...good times...well, actually it was pretty nice...relaxing too...

I went up there prepared to do some serious schoolwork...and did I do anything constructive??....not really....only got my assed kicked several times in the Game of Life....as well as Gin Rummy...

Geez...my professors can't even give me a little break for the time off from school...not only do I have twice as much work for school...I have to work the next 3 days in a row...which doesn't sound that bad...i guess....but I really just want to have some relaxation time....

True...my mini-vacay was supposed to be my "quiet" time....but, it just doesn't work right when everything you bring up has to be dragged up on the little LLBean toboggan that you got for your birthday (not recently, of course... :P)

Whatever...I've got stuff to do...which means I'll, probably just going to wait until Sun. to get it all done... :P

Isn't it funny how our senses can help stir up memories? Like, whenever I smell a certain kind of aftershave/cologne it reminds me of my first "boyfriend" even if he really wasn't...and the reason why this came up is the fact that I stumbled upon this old Avril Lavigne song and...oh my god...this wave of memories just came flooding back!

It was "Things I'll Never Say" off of I think it was her first album...from a long time ago (at least 5 or 6 yrs)...I loved that CD! and I bought it the first week it came out...and listened to it constantly...I think I was a freshmen in high school and I had this major crush on one particular guy since probably 7th grade...we were in band together and in the same section as well (percussion)as throughout middle and into high school...of course he had no idea of my existence and I could barely put two words together when I was near him...oh fuck was I shy!! I remember I spent hours listening to this song...which sort of deals with the same problem...

After a year or so...my angsty self decided that I HATED this CD! and I put it away and eventually ended up selling at a yard sale or something...I hated how now everybody loved Avril Lavigne...and I just HAVE to be different than everybody else!! lol...anyway, thats why I got rid of it...plus there were too many painful and embarrassing memories attached to it...

well, after finding and downloading practically the entire album...I'm wishing I never got rid of it...and now i'm trying to find it cheap online...all the songs came to back to me (i had memorized every one)...and I now laugh at how stupid I was....ah, the past is a funny thing....

Mood: tired
Listening to: VLR

Ah...what a lovely day outside...the rains have subsided, the sun is out....wonderful,wonderful day....and here I am, inside, sitting at my computer, enjoying some ramen in a mug and a handful of chocolate cookies...oh...and slowly making my way through my school assignments...and listening to VLR (vaguelyliveradio--->youtube members nerimon and jimmy0010....)

What's been going on? Not....much.....

Um....spring break is coming up soon...only have one full week left, and I'm planning on packing up to the mountains to our cabin for four crazy days... there probably about 3-4 ft of snow up there....the driveway is about a mile long and if our truck can't make it up, we're hauling everything we've brought up on sleds!!

My title is derived from the fact that i have recently discovered the wonders of Craisins...similar to raisins, but they're cranberries instead...oh, they are so fucking addicting!!! I bought the big bag just yesterday....and its practically gone today!!

I've found that lately I've been latching onto specific things...Craisins, for example....I've also being absolutely obsessed with Placebo's "Protege Moi" and the english version "Protect Me from What I Want"...I swear, I can't get enough of these songs....I have no idea if I'm somehow connecting to the lyrics...or i just love the way the song sounds....or whatever....but its the greatest song ever!! or at least it is THIS week.... :P

Its that time again! Time to begin registering for fall semester classes!! Whoo!! I cannot think that far ahead...why are they making me actually PLAN my future!!....agh...plus this school has the SHITTIEST options for history majors...and I'm never sure if the classes are actually going to count toward my degree, one never knows whats going to be consider only an elective or what....its so fucked up...

I should continue my studies....midterms continue this week...