I'm so smooth...
Mood: dark
It never fails...I can't get through anything without embarassing myself just a little bit....
Today I had to go to the academic investiture ceremony at school because I made the deans list and I was accepted as a Ralph Scholar (just an academic award)...in accepting this award, we are given one of those honor cords...and we have to put them on right as we get them on the stage.....my worst nightmare...
Of course when I went up to get mine....as I was putting it over my head...the fucking knot that is on the back of those cords catches my hat (we have to be in academic attire....graduation caps and gowns) and nearly takes it off....URG!!! I heard a titter in the crowd...and I walked as fast as I could off the stage...my face is still hot from that...and my skin was already breaking out....so....not a fun day....
I always get so nervous...I can't stand in front of large crowds....even before I was called up there...my heart starts pounding so loud, my head feels like its going to explode....my hands get numb...and, like I said before, my skin breaks out...my shirt was a v-neck....and I could see this big red blotches beginning....oh...my....god....
I am just glad its over....
