Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

Listening to: nada

Ah...just finished another wonderful day at work...my soul is slowly being sucked out of me..lol

Today wasn't too bad...I'm just sick of being blamed for every problem that occurs...I work at a pharmacy, and every time there is a discrepancy in how much a person is supposed to pay...usually when it is really expensive, the customers get really bitchy to me...they talk to me as if I am taking the money out of their wallets...all I can say is I just work here, I'm sorry, but I can't help you with your insurance copays.....and then they look at me as if I am the crazy one...lol

I cannot wait...vacation is in 9 days!!! and I only have three days of work left...Two whole weeks without having to deal with these people...it better be great, because I won't be able to take any more time off...two weeks is kinda a long time for my job....oh well, I think that I deserve it...and there are plenty of people who are there to cover for me....

Anyway...I have to start figuring out what i need to bring and how much I can actually fit into our car....

Better get started on that!!!

Yay...let's hear it for 18 hours of work this week!!! Whoo hoo!!!

Ha....Ha....

It has been exactly one year since I had my graduation from high school (June 25, 2006)....I'm only bring ing this up because yesterday I attended my cousin's (and co-worker's) graduation....we all went to the same school, so it was weird seeing all of these kids whom I recognized.....even if I didn't really know who they were....

This year, the administrators finally got what they wanted....to have the graduation at the local baseball stadium.....yay for them...lol

I have to admit that I was a bit jealous that this class got to have theirs at the stadium...mine was supposed to be the first...but.....what can ya do??

Anyway...the ceremony was nice...and very long...having to say 700 kid's names can do that...:)  For some reason I didn't think that my ceremony was long....but it may have been because I was just focusing all of my energy into not tripping as I went across the stage....the weather was perfect...even if it was hot in the sun...

In two months and two days I'll be starting my sophomore year in college.....god, it feels so weird to say that!!! I can't even fathom how fast these next three years are going to go....will I even be prepared for the world?? I doubt it.....

Oh...to be young and carefreee again!!!

Mood: tired
Listening to: the fan blowing...

I have so much free time now...its crazy!!!  

My hours have been cut down to just 10 a week  ( at least this week they were...) so I have all the time in the world....i've started reading....lol

My mornings consist of me sleeping til...oh 11 o'clock or so....then getting up and reading the paper...putting my bathing suit on and then laying out on a towel in my yard...catchin' some sun....after I cool off in the pool for a little while...I go and get my book and then just loll around all afternoon..either reading...dragging my radio outside and listening for some good contests to try and win...or watching a movie or two....

I'M GOING INSANE!!!!

it's so boring!!! I mean...it was nice for a few days...but this is now practically every day!! and on the days when i do work...i don't have to go in until 3 pm.....

This summer is going to suck!! I'm barely working....I'll have no more money saved up to pay for school books/ tuition/ etc...and what little money I am making now is not even enough to last me through the week....subtracting gas....and horse-back riding (the only extra thing that I am doing now.....) plus any little odds and ends that I need....I'm flat broke by the end of the week.....

They have let so many people come back to work for them that all the kids who stayed there all year through are losing all of their hours....I remember being told just before they hired me that they were not going to have anyone work for them who was going away to school during the year...all of the kids who graduated and went back to school were replaced by new people...now...we have those new people, plus the regulars (me and the kids who stayed) PLUS a few girls who came back after going away to school!!! There are way too many people working!! Everyone's schedule is being stretched some much that no one is going over 14 hrs a week....and I went from 27+ to a measley 10.....now I have a new school year coming up..I have to by new supplies...texts...get my car serviced before I have to drive to and fro every day....and I have no way to pay for it....

Whew...I just needed to get that off my chest....

Anyway...i am really getting excited about my upcoming trip....now there's only...

22 days til vacation!!!

Listening to: Bad Religion

Well....there really hasn't been too much going on lately...i've just been plowing through my school assignments and going to work.....yeah, that's about it...

Only one more week of this course, and then I'm done....what am I going to do for the rest of the summer....I'm  already bored, and there is only so much one can do in my town before you run out of things....we really don't have a lot here....discount movie place....expensive movie place....drive-in theatre....mini-golf course...go-karts (that are never open)....the mall....stuff that I've been doing forever that has lost it appeal...

I'm feeling suffocated here....there are days when I just want to jump into my car and take off somewhere...anywhere....I am so bored here!!!

Now that my hours at work were cut back I have even more free time....and there is nothing to fill them with.....I cannot wait until my vacation to D.C....its will be great to go to different places and experience new things!!!

Only 27 more days!!! Whoo Hoo!!!

Listening to: Smashing Pumpkins

It is really getting late...it's almost 1 am, and I am still working on my movie assignments....I kept putting this section off, but I'm running out of time and there are still 2 more movies to watch...

I have to watch movies from the 1930s and 1940s...not exactly interesting stuff here...my movie of "choice" tonight was the original King Kong....i could barely stay awake for it...it was so boring, and the special effects, although advanced for the time...really sucked...

Oh well...almost done with this class...only about 2 weeks left!! I love this shorten semester...and the class itself is so easy!!

I don't know what I'll do when this class is finished...the summer is looking very long and mundane....all I have to look foward to is work...and vacation that i am now starting to dread because my idiot cousin is coming...my previous entry will explain why I think she is an idiot...I am not going to let her attitude ruin it for me...not at all...

I better get back to my work...I kept getting myself distracted!!!

Mood: angry
Listening to: Alkaline Trio

I have never been so pissed in my life....and I can't talk to anyone about this..so I turn my rage to the anonymous world of cyberspace....

I invited my cousin (vacation cousin) to come to the movies with me today...just a nice little invite that seemed to simple....oh, how quickly things change....

So, my uncle was going to drop her off at my house around 3 and then we were going to go to the discount theatre place, since she (repeatedly) told me that she didn;t have a lot of money...I was fine with that....

Then, about 30 min later, she called me a said that we should go to the later showing because she was going to go to friends house for a while....what the hell?....and then I could drive into the city and pick her up at some street corner, because she could walk there from this guys house.....i wasn't too sure about this, but I reluctantly agreed....ok, so it doesn't seem so bad, but I was not very thrilled about having to drive into the city, one that I am not too familiar with (driving-wise) and try to find her on some random street...i was able to get her to meet me at a more familar landmark and I found her ok...it only took me driving around the block about 3 times before she showed up....went to the movie, everything seems fine, and I was then going to drive her back home for a family party...

Then she gets a call on her cell and her boyfriend/ex-boyfriend/random guy/who ever he was....calls and wants her to give him a ride somewhere....she doesn't even have a license nor a car...she bums rides off of people and I guess so do her idiotic friends....because she is agreeing to pick him up....I, meanwhile, feel like my eyes are about to pop out of my sockets....she is agreeing to pick this guy up....or she is saying that I  can pick him up and bring  him to where he needs to go....without even asking me!!! Finally she looks over and says....its ok, right?....and I am totally speechless....I have no idea who this guy is and I say that I'm not sure if its a good idea...then shes like, he's been walking on the side of the road for a while and hes trying to get to such-and-such a place....so I, once again, reluctantly agree....

This is the guy whos been getting her into all of this bad shit....this is the guy whom she told me was a cokehead...whom she hates oh so much..yet, she keeps saying that she wants to get back together with him....I dont get it....

Anyway, we pick him up...he doesn't say a word to me...just asks her for money....what a fucking asshole he is!....and then doesn't even say thanks or anything for giving him a lift...i wanted to say something...but I  hold my tongue....I've never been in a situation like this before, and I'm not sure if I could handle it or not....I was very nervous about this guy being in my car...I feel like I need to have it disinfected or something....lol....the guy is a fucking idiot and I can't believe she hangs out with losers like him....

I sort of hate her for putting me in this situation...ok, so mayber "hate" is a too strong of a word...but I hated it...and I'm never doing that again...I am finished trying to reach out to her....she is in a very dangerous spiral, and no one is doing anything about it.....

I think she sort of got my angry vibe, because she didn't really talk to me at the family party....so, I stayed there for a while..didn't really talk to anyone...and then left....

I don't know if I should tell my parents...because they will freak out..and I don't want our vacation to be weird....but I feel like its not going to be that great anymore...I have seen how she acts, and I'm going to be stuck with her for 2 whole...long...weeks....well, I'll get back at her...I'll drag her to all of the museums that I was planning on going to until we invited her...ha ha....how about the entire Smithsonian...plus the Lincoln Memorial...Washington Monument...and a tour of the Congress (though I don;t think they even do that anymore...)...oh, I'm really am evil.....lol...I'll kill her with walking tours....plus...all of the wonderful historic sites along the way to Williamsburg and Jamestown... Wow....I am such a history nerd...lol

Oh well...I've had my fill of adventure today.....I'm done

Mood: tired
Listening to: Combat Rock-The Clash

Its still ridiculously hot here...we've been having a lot of severe T-storms today, so the drive-ins plan was cancelled...trying for next Fri now....

I was able to go riding in between the storms and I saw the new baby at the stables! She is so cute...and I had a pretty good ride today....did a little jumping, cross country..very productive day!!

There are some nights that I find myself unable to sleep and I end up staring at my ceiling and thinking....just thinking about stuff, my life...sort of contemplating the meaning of it all...and I find myself wondering...does my life even have meaning? If I dropped dead tomorrow, would people even care? I'm sure my family would...but thats it...unless I was killed in some sort of news-worthy event...perhaps by a drunk-driver or a bank robbery (don't ask me why i'm thinking this...) then people would pay attention...

I feel like I don't even matter in this world....I'm an insignificant speck in an ocean of billions....no one really knows who I am....I'm not particulary special...I don't have an obvious talents that set me apart from the rest...all I have is myself and a shitload of CDs....maybe that's it....I don't consider myself to be average...or "normal" as some people would think....

I have a disdain for those who do follow the crowd...who follow the trends and just go along with what everyone is doing....(ah yes...I was so popular in  school!!....)....i pretty much dislike most of the new music...new movies....new fashions...and create my own style.....I love '80s movies, '80s punk, and '90s alternative rock...anything that people think is out of style, I am loving it!! This seems to be the reason why I can't find anyone with my own interests....no one here seems to have them...

I feel lonely a lot of the time...and this is why the times that I do hang out with friends I consider it to be really special.....i'm weird, I know....and this is why when people make plans with me I really get my hopes up and when those plans are cancelled, I get upset....i don't know...this is why I'm not really dependent on other people to keep me entertained.....

I know I'm not what people would consider "typical" and I love that fact about me....I love being different! and now this is starting to sound like an episode of Sesame Street...lol....

I am just me....and I am happy with that  :)