Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

Mood: hot....melting....
Listening to: the sounds from the open window

Ok...the weather is crazy....last week we had the torrential nor'easter that left about a foot of water in our basement and now its like 90 degrees outside.....what the heck is going on???

I really am loving this weather...buts its getting too hot, too fast!!!!!! Anyway, I think its only going to be in the 60s for the rest of the week....ah.....sweet relief :)

Well, we're finally getting somewhere with our vacation planning, I think that my cousin will be joining us on our wild n' wacky family tour of Washington, D.C, Virgina (or Virginny, as I like to call it), and the Jersey Shore....(or as I like to call it...the Jersey Shore....:P) I'm really getting excited and I hope all goes smoothly!! Gotta keep on saving, saving, saving....them hotels are expensive!!!

 All's well that ends well.....

 

Sayonara!!...did I spell that right??

Buon Natale! ...oh, wait...thats Merry Christmas...4 years of italian and I cant remember how to say good night!! WTF!

Mood: not happy
Listening to: The Explosion

Ya know....maybe I'm just a naive kid, but what ever happened to people just being civil towards one another? I was feeling pretty good today at work, until I found out that a certain person at work has been acting really nasty towards me....one of my co-workers was concerned and approached me...I knew nothing about this, maybe I was just too oblivious about her comments to me, or whatever...but now I'm sorta pissed off....she has no right to talk to me or about me like this, and I don't think I deserve that. So, I'm going to see if she does the same thing on Wed. when I work with her next...and if she does, I may very well complain to my boss....a hostile work environment is not something that I need right now and I will not stand for it....

Anyway, another thing thats bothering me....

I was really getting gung-ho about going to the Live Earth concert they are having at Giants Stadium...thats is until I found out how much they are costing....the cheapest ticket is $55....now that may not sound like a lot, but I've been to Giants Stadium, and if those are the cheap seats, than there is no point in going....the cheap seats would be the upper tier, and i have sat there(Green Day concert) and you can't see anything!!!!

Why do they have to make everything so goddamn expensive....so the rich people get to enjoy the good seats, while us groundlings have to contend with using binoculars?? What the hell?! I have a very limited budget, most of it going toward school books and gas to get to school...but I also really love my music and I faithfully buy the CDs (over-paying in some cases) and I think that I should be able to see some of my favorite bands in concert and be at a really cool event!! ...for a good cause, of course!

Oh well...I guess I'll just have to watch it on tv and say, "I could have been there."

Mood: cold
Listening to: Alkaline Trio

Why was i so happy last post? Maybe it was becasue the weather was nice....maybe because I had just gone through the most exercise I've had in the past 4 months?...who knows....but now its blah time once again...

Its freakin' freezing outside..snowing off  and on...where the hell did our warm weather go?? I am so goddamn tired of putting on so many layers just to walk outside...I want it to be SPRING!!! I want the sun and the warmth..and i want it now!!!!!

Its April....no more snow, no more cloudy-ass days!! I am pissed, this fucking weather sucks!!

My mood is the same color as the sky...grey.....it doesn't even feel ike Easter is in two days!! NOT AT ALL!! 

I'm glad that I do have Sunday off....but my paychecks have been dwindling down in amount for the past couple of weeks....i need to keep putting enough away to help with our vacation in July...which, by the way is still going no where...since no one seems to want to help me plan it...I can only do so much, since i'm not really paying for most of it...:P

Anyway, the rising gas prices have been killing me, plus i had to get an oil change for my car....i don't know how much more I'll be able to afford...thank goodness that there's only 1 month of school left....

I can't believe how fast this year went by...I'm already starting to figure out my classes for next fall...I'm going to be a college sophmore...i probably just spelled that wrong....but I can't believe it...!!! me...in college...finishing up my first year....

i keep thinking that this whole thing is an illusion...that I'll wake up the next day and will be 5 years younger....still having to go through  high school and deal will all that shit again....time just goes by so goddamn fast and I feel like I've already missed out on so much....some of my friends are turning 20 soon, and we jokingly said that we're halfway to 40 now....I laughed at that, but that fact keeps eating at me...I keep thinking that I've wasted the last 19 years, what have I accomplished? and what the hell am I going to do in the next 20 years?

Now that I am almost a sophomore, I keep wondering what I'm going to do after I graduate? what will my career be? It seems that they keep touting this whole idea that you have to know exactly what you want to do even before you leave high school....but I've always kept my options open, but now I'm wondering if that was the best idea...maybe I should have decided already...i don't know...

The black abyss is enveloping me.....I'm disappearing into the real world, and I don't want it...