Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

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I think I need to get some more up to date security features on my computer...it's really starting to get bogged down by spyware etc....

Anyway, school was better today....the classes didn't bug me as much as they did yesterday.....don't know why...

I starting to realize that my new AP Comparative Gov't class is going to be a real pain in the ass, even more so than American Gov't.....just a feeling I'm getting

I'm not writing a lot because it seems that whenever I have a long entry, thats the time when Blogigo "shuts down" or my computer starts acting like a jerk....so, this is all that I'm writing, I might add more later....

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Listening to: screams in silence....

Has anyone else been experiencing problems with Blogigo? Maybe its just me......

Anyway....today was the first day of the new semester and I have a couple new classes......don't really like them too much though....

The main problem is that I have no idea who most of the people are and...well, that pretty much it.......one class seems to be full of idiots while another is full of some of the smartest kids in the grade.....hmmmm.....I do get out earlier, but I doubt that I'll be going home at 12:30PM every day....I'm starting to get a lot more homework than in the first semester....its library time!!!!!

Well, thats pretty much it.....not much else is going on....

Mood: bored
Listening to: the radio...hoping they'll play my request

YAY!!!

I'm all done with my finals...took it yesterday.......it's been a confusing week so far.....

Monday there was a snow day....usually this is no big deal....but that day was the last day of the semester......I had finals for my half-year courses that day.....

Yesterday, the first day of regents week, I already had part two of my Gov't final, but we were supposed to do our essay portion on Monday......we ended up doing both parts yesterday

I'm feeling pretty good about my final, I think all of the "last-minute" studying really paid off.......

Anyway, I'm not too sure whats going to happen about the other test I missed, it was for my Reading Non-Fiction class, it was only a few multiple choice questions, so maybe he'll decide not to count that with our grades.....?????

Well, I'm done with thinking about that.....

Theres just one more thing I'd like to say......to all of those who keep flooding my guestbook with ads for diet pills and online gambling, I would really appreciate it if you would kindly stop, it is such a pain in the ass having to delete five to ten every day....ok? Thanks every so much for your expected cooperation....and if you don't, there will be HELL to pay......

Mood: a bit confused.....
Listening to: Pearl Jam- Glorified......something (I think that's what it is)

I've run out of things to say....both here and in the "real world"....I have absolutely nothing to say to anyone....its not even like I'm my usual anti-social self.....I just don't want to speak....right now I'm starting to sound like an idiot....

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d.r.a.w.i.n.g.a.b.l.a.n.k.............

I've always had trouble being able to go up to a person and starting up a conversation......but, I would usually grab onto some courage and do it.....but I can't seem to do even that.....I feel like I'm hiding in the shadows and then running past them as quickly as possible so there would be no eye contact involved.....

Being social is not something that I look foward to....I don't have some dark outlook on life.....I don't contemplate suicide or anything like that....I like to think that I'm down-to-earth and generally a happy person...... I don't make trouble and I don't go looking for it......I just sit back and do nothing.....maybe that's my problem.....I don't know.....but, I feel like I'm missing life.....

I haven't really experienced many of the normal "teenage things" that people are supposed to go through....but I don't think that going out, hanging out at the mall, or going to parties and getting "wasted" are really going to accomplish much.....yet, because I don't do these things I feel like such an outsider......but, the thing is, I LIKE being an outsider.....I think that I'm above everyone....better than them because I have the will-power to do it....you know? it's the stupidest thing to think, but that's what I believe.....

I'm getting even more jumbled up now........I'm done thinking about it........

Mood: ....
Listening to: Live

I can't believe how lazy I'm feeling...I just haven't felt like doing anything!!

It seems that the minute I get home from school I end up falling asleep....I just drop off.....is that I'm just not getting enough sleep? or is it because I have very few outside activities besides school itself?? I think I know what the answer is......

I seem to be having a continuous headache.....I've been having a lot of finals or preparation for finals all this week and I'm starting to feel a little bit overwhelmed....The only final that I'm worried about is my AP Gov't...its not even the actual AP exam....just the teachers own final and I do not feel prepared....I've been reading the book we have and going through my notes and I can't seem to remmeber anything that I've just read...nothing is registering......I should be retaining this information...but it just seems to go right through my brain and out the other side.....

More studying to come......ARG.........

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I have nothing to do...so I'm going to be a pain.....

It's been raining a lot here....I thought that I was going to drown when I walked out of school.....its windy too....I have no idea why I'm saying this....

Finals are coming up....I have them for the rest of the week, plus one day during regents week....oh, fun.....

thats all....

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my computer seems to be having some problems, so I'll have to make this fast before it freezes up again....

good news!! I just got my first college acceptance letter...to Mount Saint Mary College (my #1 choice!) I'm very happy over this, though I'm not sure if I can go, financially-speaking.

Anyway...thats it....

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I'm really confused over the weather we're having over here in the good ol' northeast...it's been 50 degrees plus for the past few days...and I could swear that things are starting to look like spring...winter has sort of just started, and there's no snow in sight....I just thought that to be odd....

It's true, though, that we've gone through several snow days...but, it was mostly because of icy road conditions....not the amount of snow.....

This is sort of a stupid topic....but I just wanted to put it out there....

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Listening to: radio

I feel like I haven't written for ages....but it's only been three days....I don't know....it seems that all of a sudden, time is going slower....school seems to take forever to finish....this week has been going slow....whereas the winter break went by too fast, that seems to be the way it is....

Nothing is in focus....I've kind of gone through all the motions of school and stuff like that...but I haven't really been "there"?...you know...? I'm tired of everything.....both physically and mentally....it seems that the "holiday spirit" that sort of filled the last two or three weeks of December is gone...and everyone is really bitchy....at least in my family.... Wednesday I had to go through twenty minutes of my mom screaming at me over something that started so simple.....I didn't feel like going to Barnes and Nobles bookstore to exchange some Christmas gifts....from there it came to how I never agreed with her (particulary concerning a stupid CD/DVD/VHS bookcase sort of thing...that she wanted me to get...but I didn't like it all that much.....).....next, that led to how lazy, sad, lonely, unmotivated, jobless, arguementative, and "friendless" she thinks I am....I didn't even say anything during this time.....but I ended up exploding when she was finsihed...and that didn't lead to anything good....so in the end I have an appointment to get a physical for my working papers application, and the threat that if I don't start looking for a job soon....she will chose one for me, and basically fill out the application for me....

I'm a little lost...I'll admit that....but the whole problem with this situation is that I won't have any way of getting to a job....my mom says she won't take me, she doesn't have the time....but for me to get a car, I will need to have a job.....but without a job I can't afford a car....its a whole vicious cycle...and it really sucks...

Well...on that happy note........

Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing

I can't believe it...but school was cancelled today...one more day added to my vacation...

I wish I could say that I am really excited about this....but, the fact is that there are only two snows day left before we lose even more vacation time...this has been a weird wonter so far....I don't think that we have ever used up so many days this early into the season....

I'm writing so early for reasons I don't even know...I wasn't able to sleep at all last night...I think the last time I looked at the clock it was about 4:30....I may have dozed every now and then...but never a full sleep....I ended up getting up at around 5:00 to call the hotline to see what was going on with school....and I couldn't get back to sleep.....so...here I am.....I might write some more later on in the day....