The Horns of a Dilemma......
Mood: ........
Listening to: Death Cab for Cutie
It's really not that bad....it's more of a personal problem....
I seriously think that there's something wrong with me....and it doesn't help that my parents keep bugging me about it....it's.....well, the main problem is that I don't really have too much of a social life....not too many friends....I could probably count them on one hand.....
It's not that I'm a bad person or anything...I just don't like people, I hate all the stupid little issues that everyone has and...I really don't know how to explain it....people, in general annoy me....not everyone, but a lot do....
I'm frustrated by this, and I guess its not very normal...but what is normal anyway? I have no desire to be like everyone else....and I hate when my mom points this out...she will mention thats its not normal for a 16 year old girl to not like to wear make-up....and I respond that I think the stuff is very fake, why can't I look like how I want to? I take care of my face, but I don't want to hide myself behind all that crap.....
I always feel like I'm walking alone...there's no one I can trust, no one I can confide in, so I'm bottling up my emotions. I mean, sure I have some superficial friends....but I don't feel that I could really talk to them, talk about anything serious at least.....
This whole thing just fucking frustrates me!!!!
