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I haven't really felt like writing anything .....so thats why I haven't been here for about 2 weeks.....
I don't think that I will be updating very regularly anymore....sorry, but I'm just not into this anymore....
I may type a few things every now and then, some updates on whats going on , etc.....but thats about it....
I think that graduation is finally hitting me, I picked up my cap and gown today, graduation is a little more than a month away.....and I've realized what a waste high school was...at least for me....
It in no way prepares you for the real world, I feel like I'm about to be thrust into the darkness kicking and screaming, the environment is so artificial ( like in that movie "The Truman Show"), everything is created so that you feel safe, but that's not how it works out there....
I've made no lasting friendships, I doubt that I'll keep in touch with the few aquaintances that I do have...I just don't feel in control anymore, like I was over the years....
I mean, sure...I'm going to a pretty nice college: small, relatively safe, one could even call it "home".....but I don't feel ready...I feel like I should be entering high school again as a freshman, to be 13 again and not have to worry too much about what's going on in the world, only to have to worry about your inner circle and the soap opera drama that is high school ( not that I cared too much about that anyway.....), but instead, I'm going to an unknown place, where I'll have to watch out for myself, do things for myself, and grow up......
