Just Lil' Ole Boring Me

Good bye Blogigo...it has been a great 3 years, but this site is like a fucking ghost town...I am in the lengthy process of manually moving all of my entries over to my new livejournal account...

My new url will be:

http://herfordship.livejournal.com/

 

so...stop by if you ever want to see how i'm doing in life  :)

Being the creeper that I am...I found this on one of the blogs that I like to read on a daily basis...and even though I should be studying for my last final (which is tomorrow...and is quite the doozy!)...I am filling this out for what is probably just going to be for my own personal entertainment....

 1. What’s your name?
Um....raincheck? Damn, the first question and i'm too much of a scaredy cat to answer....ok I'll give my first initial:   K 

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
My Jack Skellington fingerless gloves that I bought at Disney World...but I suppose this question refers to actual clothes: I guess my black pea-coat jacket...oh so trendy!!
3. Last thing you ate?
Keebler Fudgies: the best freakin' cookies ever!! and a glass of milk to dunk them in, of course....

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
Uh...I guess the pizza place by my work...the food is terrible, plus I think being located next to a large construction zone just can't be good for the calzones, if ya know what I mean....well, I don't really know what I mean, so I guess you wouldn't be able to either...

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
You have a shotgun?

6. Last person you hugged?
A friend...after they gave me my birthday present :)

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
Yes...but I already broke it off before anything serious could happen...suffice it to say we don't really hang out that much anymore...but that was last year, so I guess I'll say no for this year, so far

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
I don't think so...

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
My eyes...even though i am blind as a bat, I like their color...though they used to be blue and now they're green...weird...

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
The Daily Planet Diner with my parents...for my birthday...and they sang to me in front of the entire place...ack!

11. Who is your best friend?
I really can't choose one person...but I will say that I finally have found some good friends...which I have never had before

12. What time of the day is it?
It is 11:30 pm

13. Who/What made you angry today?
Not getting the December issue of Alternative Press...even though they already promised to send me a new issue because they didn't send me one before

14. Baseball or Football?
How about neither...I hate when those games run into overtime and mess up programs that I plan on watching....or when there is nothing on TV except sports....oohh i hate it

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
NO!

16. Favorite type of Food?
Chinese....??
17. Favorite holiday:
Christmas

18. Do you download music:
Yes...but if I like a band I will eventually go out and buy their albums...when I have the money...

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Yeah
.
20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
I dont really have an opinion...tattoos just don't have that "I'm sooo Hardcore" meaning that they used to have...I need to find something a lot more outrageous...

21. Would you date the person that posted this?
AmazingPhil?....well, if I HAD to  :P
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?

Nope...I'm not that special...


23. Do you love anyone?
Family and close friends...but no Romeo O Romeo! for me...yet
24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
Cannot stand contacts...which is why I wear good ol' glasses

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
No...too scary

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
No...too scary

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Probably...but I'm too oblivious to that kind of attention to noticed if they did or not...working as a cashier you always get those creep men who are too friendly....they like to learn in towards you when they take their change in order to sneek a peek down my shirt...gross...which is why I usually wear zippered sweatshirts to work...Haha! foiled your nefarious plan!!

27. How many pets do you have?
4...two kitties (which aren't allowed in the main part of our house :(  my dog and my betta fish

29. Have you met a real redneck?
They always seem to crawl out of who knows where just in time for the county fair... every summer

30. How is the weather right now?
Freezin'
31. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing right now...silence is nice sometimes

32. What is your current favorite song?
That's hard...but i love The '59 Sound by the Gaslight Anthem...
33. What was the last movie you watched?
TWILIGHT...and I enjoyed it very much...even though it doesn't really do the book justice...
34. Do you wear contacts?
NO!

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
College...just went in today to hand in a research paper and take one of my history finals
36. What are you afraid of?
Feeling pain
37. How many piercings have you had?
none...though I still want a lip piercing...which I know won't happen...have internship interviews coming up soon
38. What piercings do you want?
oh...I answered this already...see answer #37  :)

39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year?
Trying to hide who you really are won't solve any of your problems....and...having people who enjoy spending time with you really is a good feeling  :)
40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Who the hell has enough money to go to starbucks? I brew my own joe...
41. What Magazines are you reading?
Rolling Stone, Alternative Press, and Smithsonian

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
Yeah...a .22 and an air gun...back in the days when I tried to bond with my Dad by taking hunter safety courses...though i never could go through with getting my hunting license and actually SHOOTING an animal...not for me I suppose

43. Are you missing someone?
Yes...but she's coming back in January!

44. Favourite TV show?
Just one? Can't choose...Heroes, Buffy, Smallville, Supernatural, Veronica Mars, and The Office
45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
Is that some kind of video game?

47. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity?
nope
47. What celeb do you look like?
I like to think my look is "unique"...thank you very much 

48. Who would you like to see right now?
Um...the person whom i'm missing?
49. Favorite movie of all time?
These questions are too hard! Donnie Darko.....maybe???
50. Do you find yourself loved?
Loved...yes....understood....no

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to?
Yup...but I shan't disclose it  :P
52. Favorite smell?
Apple Pie...god how stereotypically American am I?
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Salt! Butter! All mixed together!!

54. What’s something that really bugs you?
When people judge me before they get to know me...I see that look on their face, they've already made their decisions regarding me...and so I just shut myself down...

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
not....really...

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
gotta tell ya...neither of those really appeal to me...how 'bout Wendys?

57. What’s your favorite perfume?
this is gonna sound stupid, but a certain "someone" whom I spent some time with used to wear that Axe bodyspray, that scent has really stuck with me...even though things ended badly...everytime I smell someone wearing that stuff it makes me remember....things....
58. Favorite baseball team?
NONE! Take that American pastime!!  Ha!!
59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
Eww...
60. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?
40+ hours...when I went to Disney this October...flew down, stayed up all that first night...then went to Magic Kingdom and stayed there from opening til closing (15 hours just in that one park alone!!)...We all were a little cranky by nights end, however  :P

61. Last time you went bowling?
A few weeks ago...though we didn't go late enough to go cosmic bowling, which is 100% better!

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Airplane?

63. Who was your last phone call?
I haven't made an actual phone call in so long...i think either my mom or dad...???
64. Last time you were at work?
Sunday!! From 9am to 3pm!!
64. What is the closest orange object near you?
CD cover...No Use For a Name: Keep Them Confused  (I'm actually trying to sell it online...)

AND...that's it!! This took a lot longer than I thought it would....and now its after midnight and I still haven't finished my fucking studying!!!  CRAP!

Listening to: Bayside

This time next week= School out for winter break...meaning my brain can turn to mush for a whole month and a half...

I'm thinking I might transfer this blog over to another website...blogigo is kinda creeping me out, what with most of the updated blogs deal with weird sexual themes and sex toys now...not exactly my cup of tea...

Now I'll have the time to do it..once I finish the next four days of HELL.....this weekend alone I have to study for my last two finals (which I have not started) and pretty much pull a ten page research paper out of my ass (with the appropriate rough draft attachment...arg) I really should be working on that right now...but I figure "Hey...I got three pages done...time for a blogging break!" i think I'm finished for tonight anyway...i'll work on it mainly on Sunday night (its due on monday)

Seriously...this semester I have put EVERYTHING off 'til the last minute....I never used to be like this ....I'm usually the kind of person to have a paper completed WEEKs before its due (not hours) I just do not care anymore...I have no more passion for learning....I hate my school....I hate everyone....blah,blah,blah,angst,angst,angst...

My parents are starting to bug me...what else is new...i leave one letter out concerning a "field trip" of sorts taking place during break and when I say I really do not feel like going they jump on me...saying that i'm throwing my college years away, that I'm not concerned enough with my educational experiences.....etc...

Ok...first thing...it is one trip that I would have to PAY for...to go down to the city three days in a row....left on my own (no buddy system here)...and sit through hours upon hours of historical lectures....no THANK you

Yes...I am a history major...you could say that I love learning about it...but its during break!! I have spent the last four freakin months learning about history...writting insanely long papers on it...cramming 200 years of information into my brain until it feels like its going to burst out through my ears (not including the other 1000 years from my previous ancient civ classes)...I need a rest...recharge the batteries so to speak...

I don't really hang out with any of the other students from the dept...so i would be either going through this by myself (and I don't feel comfortable walking around NYC...I've only been there three times in my entire life)....or tagging awkwardly along with the other kids (NO)

I'm tired of being by myself on these things...I need to find more people out there who share the same interests...few if any of my  friends really care that much about history...most of them are more into the math and sciences...so i feel very alone sometimes...

finally...I was wondering when this thing would work again...I can't believe I had to go 4 WHOLE days without a place to vent....ha ha

nothing to vent about really...ho hum

Twilight was amazing

My friends are amazing

My family is amazing

My birthday was amazing

EVERYTHING IS JUST SO DAMNED AMAZING!!!

Listening to: Placebo

I'm Nobody!

Who Are You?

Are You...Nobody...Too?

-a snippit from Emily Dickinson

I do feel like a nobody...actually I feel more like Molly Ringwald in 16 Candles...

I don't know...I just fell like friends are supposed to be happy when its your birthday...they're supposed to take you out to have a fun time...or maybe I've just been watching way too many teen movies...

No one has really mentioned anything, apart from a maybe we'll go to the movies...and I don't want to have to say "Hey let's go out for my birthday"  That sounds sorta deperate, right? Or maybe its just me and my own stupidity...and I am not too delusional to hope for a surprise...because that ONLY happens in the movies

Arg...I waste too much time whining about what I wish would happen... I just don't really want to spend my 20th birthday at home with my parents...don't get me wrong, its nice to spend time with them...but I freakin see them every day...I spend every day sitting in my room...I love going out...it just feels so....normal, I suppose...

Plus I'm sick...my throat is killing me...

O Life! Why do you hate me so?

Thanksgiving Break....extremely brief....and extremely unsatisfying...

Everyone's home...I can't get a moments peace...It's annoying

I have to make pumpkin pie later today...honestly I would much rather just lay in bed until 4 and then go off to work...but apparently I need to be "productive" today...

Productive?? I have been fucking productive since August...I have not had a proper break from school since then...and I have load of class work I need to get done this week...I just wanted ONE day to take a break

Tomorrow's shot because of the holiday...Work's closed but I don't get holiday pay, which means that I will have less money...which makes me cranky

My birthday's on Saturday...hopefully people remember....I think I'm going to go see Twilight with some friends, but they have been known to make plans and then "forget" about them....

I'm going to be 20 years old....

....20 years....

I cannot fathom that...

Oh...

and it's starting again....he thinks he can hide it....but he can't

Nothing is going right today...

1. I've had a mondo headache all day

2. I got a really bad grade on a quiz...apparently I misunderstood the question...

3. I have to redo my resume for co-op....and I seemed to have picked the wrong faculty member to have fill out my recommendation form...because he has yet to do it...and I gave him the sheet 2 fucking weeks ago!...AND there is no record of me attending the required info session, even though I signed in....so ????

4. I just went and spent a lot of money...even though I don't have it

5. An item I sold on ebay came back...I wrote the wrong damn address and now  I have to spend more money to get it expressed shipped

DamnDamnDamnDamn

Tomorrow better be a better day...or I'll just have to scream...

Listening to: A Static Lullaby

OOOOOOOOOk....

So....everything seems to be back to normal here at my loverly abode and I am making some headway in my course assignments....let's take a look, shall we???

Finished: Legal History Paper, Mary Shelley handout and PowerPoint, my resume (which is painfully and embarassingly short and uninteresting)

Working on: finished page 4 of my 15 page research paper for poli sci class...still plugging away at Brigham Young (damn you and your Deseret paradise!)

Haven't Started: English research paper...studying for finals (which are in about 2 weeks AH!)

Plus I've made an appointment to see my co-op counsler-lady for next Monday...I'm a little nervou about this whole next step in my life....but hopefully it will be painless...

Well...back to the paper....my family must think I am insane, since I'm basically talking my way through the paper...dictating to myself what to type and also giving myself constructive criticism at the same time....oh well....

Listening to: A Static Lullaby

You are mad at how your life turned out

Don't take it out on me

20 years of anger have been simmering inside you

I don't deserve the brunt of it

You scream at me

You're only making me want out faster

I want to get out of here

I can't take it anymore

Find someone else to vent your rage on

Not your daughter...

Listening to: The Gaslight Anthem

I am feeling pretty good today...slowly but surely the weight of school assignments are being lifted off of my shoulders...plus other good things are a'happenin' too

Finished: 1. english writing assignment for this week 2. scholar essay!! 3. gave recommendation form to boss for them to fill out for me 4. preliminary research for one of the history papers due soon 4. written portion of my presentation on Mary Shelley for another history class

Unfinished: (writing of) 1. History paper on Brigham Young and the founding of Utah 2. English paper on John Cheever's The Enormous Radio 3. Powerpoint presentation on Mary Shelley for European History 4. Poli Sci paper on the war powers of Lincoln and Roosevelt 5. History paper on S.C. cases dealing with violation of civil liberties and civil rights during wartime 6. my resume for the internship program...(completion of) 1. faculty recommendation form 2. required job interview workshop for said internship program...(research) 1. all above papers...yikes!!!

To Do This Week: 1. drop off recommendation form to professor  2. complete require interview workshop on Wednesday 3. drop off scholar essay  4. research in on-campus library this morning before class, tonight before coming home, Thursday morning before class

Other Good Things: 1. SATURDAY!! Hanging out with friends...going to dinner to celebrate everyone's birthday (including my own...Nov.29th!!), going bowling, and then going to see a late movie...CaNnOt WaIt!!! 2. worked extra hours this week= good paycheck to buy people's Christmas presents...and/or a treat for myself ( oil change for the car haha)

Less than four weeks left in this semester....where the hell did the time go?!

So....yeah....I am pretty busy this week...

Where should I start?

That damn English presentation was the death of me!

I really dislike that class!

I mean, I am not majoring in English...I just took this class in order to be considered a full-time student. I don't do well when i have to present...my mind almost always goes blank...I lose my focus...and I never get it back...

I am a history major...that's what I am most passionate about....plop me down and let me talk about that and I could go on for hours...but when I have to discuss and analyze stories, i never say the right thing...I never perceive them in the way that everyone else sees it...

And the thing that really, really pissed me off was how the other students in the class were talking to me as if I was mentally challenged...even the professor was talking in that voice you reserve for children...

I am the youngest in the class...big deal

That does not mean I am any less capable than you!

Ugh...what a crappy start to this week....

Listening to: The Starting Line

thereissomuchgoingonrightnowthatidon'tthinkthatmybrainhasyettofullyprocessit...

i have:

english presentation due mon...FINISHED

english research paper due in a few weeks...HAVE  started prep

history presentation on Nov.20...HAVE NOT done anything yet

history paper due Nov. 25...FINISHED

history research paper due Dec. 8...nothin' done

history paper due...I can't remember...once again...very little prep done

poli sci research paper...20 damn pages long!! Haven't started AT ALL...due Nov....something

Essay and Application for Scholar award...due Nov 14....haven't started!!!

Application for internship....haven't completed...but that's not due for a while

Everything happening so fast all my assignments are coming up...I've been sorta offered a part-time job doing research for one of my profs...course registration is this coming week....I have a co-op info meeting to go to on Tues...etc.....etc....etc

I have to stop procrastinating...but I feel like I'm the only one who has all this stuff to do...its like none of my friends have this many assignments....they are always wanting to go out....I feel like I have to go....so then I end up doing all of my stuff at about midnight...and then end up having to go back a redo practically everything I did because it was completely useless...

what more can I do? i already don't go out on school nights...but I have to work...I need to at least sorta relax on the weekend....but i have to work, again!!! and why shouldn't i get to have some fun? everyone else is doing it.....

I hate going on about how stressed I am...because I know i'm not the only one out there....I guess i just wish I could have the same cavelier approach that the rest of them seem to have when it comes to school...I am upset when I don't get an A...there I said it....you know why? I work my ass off at studying and completing my assignments...I may put everything off until the last minute...but i get it done, fully and completely....

Oh....I don't understand people sometimes....

All I can say is why?why?why?why?why?why?

WHY. WOULD. YOU. DRINK. AND. DRIVE???????? UNDERAGE?!?!?!?!?!?!? GAHHHHHHH!!!

THIS IS BLOWING MA MIND!!!

I'm begging you!!! Pleasepleasepleaseplease!! Call me for a ride home!!! I Will Come To The Damn Bar AND Drive You Home! Hell...You Can Stay At My House If You Don't Want Your Parents To See You Shitfaced!!!!

I wish I could be there to talk some sense into you...but I don't want to ruin your "big" day...

It's not that I've lost respect for you...I'm not taking a holier-than-thou attitude....I'm just trying to be the voice of reason here....I understand you want to show how you are now able to go a get a drink whenever you want....I get it...I suppose its a right of passage....but what is the fun in getting completely plastered...I just don't understand that part....Have a drink or two...but don't overdo it...you are just going to hurt yourself....or possibly others if you FUCKING DRIVE UNDER THE INFLUENCE!!!!! GAAAAAAHHHHH!!! I just can't wrap my mind around how FUCKING STUPID that was!!!

I need to take a break from this for a second....I'm getting too worked up....

I cannot believe that it costs $100 to get a passport...wtf...

Well I guess that's going to have to go at the bottom of my TO DO list...after I've saved enough money to

1. get a haircut

2. get my winter coat dry-cleaned

3. buy new bed sheets

.......................................

..... at this rate, I think it'll be a while before I get to leave this country....

ok.....question: What should I do?

There's a surprise 21st b-day party for a friend of mine...a lot of people I know are going to be there....

Problem: 1. It's at a bar...I'm not 21 yet...they probably won't even let me get in 2. I'm sort of against the consumption of alcohol, and I don't feel comfortable hanging out in a bar..it would be weird.... 3. (this really isn't too much of an issue) It's on a Monday night....and I have school in the morning... i.e. I don't think my parents would be too thrilled, but also I don't like staying out late on school nights...it messes me up for the next day...

I don't mind going out...its just I'm feeling torn on this issue....and I don't think I want to see a friend of mine completely wasted....  ::sigh:: why oh why did i decide to finally make friends....

ah...how i love puns...

Ok...so, as usual, I worried more than I needed to concerning my grades....on that exam I thought I failed I got a 96 (A)....so, that made me feel much better....and on my other exam that I had on the same day I got an 88 (B+)...which is a little disappointing seen as how I actually prepared myself a lot more for that one...but I'm not complaining...that was a bad day and I still have two more grades to bulk up my GPA

This college o' mine is really pissing me off...not only have I had issues concerning the parking situation...in the mail today I got a bill from the school stating that I owe 56 bucks....I don't understand where this came from...I paid my tuition more than 3 fucking months ago, so what took so long for this to be figured?...the problem also is that if you have any outstanding balances on your account, you can't register for the next semester's classes....my registration day is in a week and a half...so....unless I can get this sorted out quick, I'm pretty fucked....

Oh screw you ___ ___ ___ College!! Try getting any more money from me...it'll be like trying to squeeze blood out of a stone....I'm so broke its not even funny...

Back again for yet another round...Midterms have been going on for the last few weeks...I don't know why they are stretched out for so long...and I am so worried about what I got on my Presidency exam...it was so hard and so long (that's what she said...oh, ha ha ha...yeah, that's about the extent of my humor today...)

Song lyrics to sum it all up....forgive me for my melodramatic ways...

I'm S-I-C-K of my meaningless life.

Where C-H-A-N-C-E-S pass me by.

That's R-E-A-L-I-T-Y...

And you might ask why nothing's ever how it seems.

I think I knew more when I was 13.

When did life get so real?

Now I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I used to think all the time.

Now thinking hurts and feelings are worse...I liked reality better when it was a dream.

Sometimes I feel like jumping off a bridge...

in less than 24 hours I will be in florida...i'm going to disney world!!!

though of course all of my mid-terms are the day after I get back...so I get to study in disney....oh joy