Lee"s Log**Have Faith

i finally used a tampon...lol. it was painful but hey. i got to go swimming. today we had conditioning and it was really hard. ms. j is runnin them now cause coach has summer school to run but thats okay. cept she is much harder on us. and makes us do so much more. all well though cause it was just cause we switched from the weight room to the gym. and the gym is sooo much bigger. wow. them lunges are hard. ive been really bored. whitney and john broke up which dosnt surprise me. i cant wait until camp comes next week. and that david crowder concert...WoW!! i cannot wait! i also cant wait until we stop this stupid retareded conditiong. can you believe there are acually people who failed gym? yea theres about 30..lol. so. ive been very bored outta mi mind besided the whole v-ball thing.skooter stayed the night last night. we went biking from like 6 til 10. it was soo much fun. we went again today but it was just too hot and jessy was with us so we couldnt go anywhere cause she was walkin and she couldnt keep up. but thats okay everyone loves jessy. casey started going to counseling and i havent heard from her. i hope shes gonna be okay. i just want my casey back. im sure all of us do. LoVe Lee.

today has been rather boring. i talked to stephen mostly all day. hes cool if you get to know him. i cant understand why him and casey pick at each other all the time. oh yea i updated my profile today. i wish i could make my aol profile like the aim one because the aim one is prettier and it allows you to write more. but not enough. i still had to shorten up my message. today i also talked to devin again. hes pretty cool. i remember i use to like him in elementary school...lol. thats weird how people can just leave your life and then come back and it feels as if nothing ever happend. just like flener and shay. well i reckon i gotta go cause my noodles are ready...Bye bYe...Lee

havnt talked fer a good two days. its been fun. johnson is pushin us harder then eever so thats always fun. i started talkin to devin again from ele. school and hes real cool now. he goes to prp now. but i guess my life has been pretty borin for real. except for thursday night casey ran away and no one had any clue about where she was or when wed find her. she scared us soo much. i was so scared and i didnt know what to do. everyone was lookin for her and by the time they found her they were just happy to see her again. so i dont think shes really being punished which is good. but she showed up at practice the next day so that was fun. but ima go cause this is boring...LoVe Lee.

lol. man i havent talked to you in a while...or at least it seems that way. i havent been doing too much but yet ive still been busy. monday night casey stayed the night. i think i mightev wrote that night and then tuesday me and theresa went with the d-group up ta joes and that was fun. then after that we went to deals and walmart where we decided she wanted me to spend the night. but of course mom wasnt rollin with that so she came over here instead and we walked around the dale and all that. then we stayed up all night talking to jacob. so then we woke up and we walked around and then she rolled out. so after that nothing real good happend. i woke up and went to v-ball today and then casey came over and we planned redoing her room. and then she went home and i went to sleep and then i went with momma to go to the kingdom 2 pick stacey up. and then we went and picked up some pizza and now im home. thats about it...oh YeA camps less than two weeks away...i CaNt WaiT...LoVe Lee

todays been pretty good. i had v-ball and all that jazz but it was okay. its makin me work again. tonights casey gonna stay the night and were gonna go play tennis tomorrow. that'll be fun. i reckon so long as we get up early enouff to not get in the humid part of the day. but i reckon ill go cause i realy dont feel like typin ne more...theres too many im's lol. gotta go. LoVe Lee

Mood: AnXiOuS

today rocked my socks and thats all i can say. the seniors were all graduating from church but i got to see nate. i know i know he acually showed up...lol but we didnt talk very much. and him and heather are supposidly in an argument and thats not cool.lol. personally i cant see how he could be that much of an a**hole. i mean i just dont see it. but apparantly some days he can. anyway yea. the worship tonight rocked if i do say so myself but then again gavin told me he likes me and i was all trying not to be mean but i really dont like him at all. i dunno. thats just how it is somedays. anyways yea...i wish i coulda talked to a few more people tongiht though...preferably the cute guys...lol. but i really did get into it today and there was this one part during cummonion where they were playing my new favortie song and then they turned down the music and i was one of the only ones standing up and then i sung in my high voice and it sounded so good for once i was so proud. and then it ended and i was sad...lol. welp gotta go love to give you more info but i dont think i can see i got v-ball at nine again...LoVe Lee

Listening to: Get A CLue!?!

Yepp...im BoRed AGAIN! acually like bored out of mi mind because ive already blogged today and im just doing this entry to pass the time. lol. i love Raven. mom is on her way to go and pick up stacey from the kingdom. she got called in at about 4 cause candice wanted to go home...she felt sick. I also shaved today so i wouldnt be all stubbly at v-ball tomorrow...YAY! go me. and again boredom takes over. its really pittifull that i cant occupy myself for like more then 5 minutes...dont ya think? im so BoReD!!!! im going to start puttin in all that i have eaten everyday so that i can keep track of how much im eating and how much i need to exercise. so...today i have eaten...bacon and toast this mornin round 8, then i ate a jelly sanwich and some doritos and some turkey lunch meat for lunch/dinner. ten at about 6 i ate a little mini bag of mini fudge shop cookies. and thats been it. i think i should take littler proportions and eat more healthy and then eat more often and drink more water. i think that'll work. im talkin to tii about how were gonna get al our stuff to camp cause we dont got no suitcases and if we put em in duffels they'll get wrinkled. all well what can ya expect ima fairdale girl and i aint got no fancy smancy suitcase with compartments and all that jazz. He's not gotten on yett and thats what ive been waiting for. i was lookin forward to talkin to him all day and now im ruined...lol. not really, but i still wanted to talk ta him. i dont know what to do about me anymore. i dont know why im always so crazy and everything. i think...i dont know what i think. but thats life. today im going to try to make a record length entry. im gonna try to make the little scroll thingy be able to roll. i think im already loosin interest in my new goal so i must find something that interest me in writting about...maybe music. okay well i play the piano and i havent for like two days and im missing it but still dont get into the piano room to play it. i think im growing increaseingly lazy or maybe i am just growing increasingly sore from all the conditioning. for christmas or my birthday(hopefully my birthday as it is closer) my mommy is supposed to be buying me a guitar. i think that's awesome. ive always wanted one cause my momma played one when she was young cause she sung with my grandpa who sung and played. well anyways...yea ive always wanted one. i cant believe im acuall gonna get one. but i think im going to try to teach myself because i tought myself on the piano and even though im not great what i have tought myself to play i play well. so im kinda worried that what it i like pick it up and i cant get the hang of it? all well i think i worry to much i should definately just wait and see. I want it sooo bad though. man o man i just made the scroller thingy work! yay! thats always gotta make ya happy. tii is mowin the grass and now im alone with no one to talk to or at least no one who is on the internet. i cant talk on the phone while im talking on the internet because again i dont have the fancy smancy rquipment for all that...lol. Like(a good computer.) mines older than forever. i got it in fifth grade and hello im in 10th dont ya think thats plenty of time for an upgrade. i do. but i know that we dont have the most money cause again im living in fairdale and us rednecks aint made of money. man o man i think ima stop typing and get offa here because if he were getting on he would'ev done got on by now. Well LiKe i SaiD iM GoNe...LoVe Lee.

Mood: happy because everythings okay right now...sad cause i know it wont last...

Hey ppl. Im...Not so bored. a few days ago i went to the weblog of nadine and i read a pretty cool entry about the state of the world and the violence and everything. i agree with what you said in my comments. now all we need is a way to do it. to make change for the better and to convert people who couldnt care less to people who couldnt care more. but thats that and i'll think about it when im not busy. which is most of the time. well. ive had a pretty good day except that its really hot outside and i went to v-ball conditioning which was fine. i acually finished fourth today in our mile...pretty good step up from last...lol. then after volleyball me and heather went up to the tennis courts and hit around a little bit. that was cool too except that it was so stifiling hot. B4 me and heather made our way up to the park we went to mr. johnsons room to get some balls and it was weird in the school...there were tons f desks everywhere and tons of cars in the parking lot but we only saw like 2 people...lol. TwiLighT ZoNe*du du du du du du du du.-lol. man o man im crampin like a mug g. oh man casey moved in with her daddy somewhere over on bardstown road cause her and her mommy had a tiff. i miss not being able to see her whenever i can. i also miss her b/c she hangs with heather so much. all well though...BReaThe, StRetCh, ShaKe, Let iT go. Man O man. Life is good in the anarchy hood...J/k!!! BeNs A BeAnBaG. i dont think that anyone in their right mind could support anarchy. sRy if that offends ya buddies but dead seriously i wouldnt be happy with it. i dont feel safe with laws...much less without em'. well ima go cause...i CaN*

Mood: PeRtii DaT BuRn HaPpii

im...not bored. but very excited. i never got back to yall on the whole why i feel the way i feel thing did i? all well. Maybe no ones really suppose to know exactly what goes through my head except for me and the person who put it there. which would be God. so thats that. i feel like writting another poem. i dunno. if i wasnt hurting yesterday from practice i sure am now. this conditioning is wearing me down but thats a good thing. now i will be more healthy and pfysically fit. im not going to become obsessed with it but ya know...i will care from now on. which is always good i reckon. today i ran my mie in under 11 minutes. i dont know what the time was exactly but i reckon it was bout 9 minutes cause sunspot didnt come back for a while after me and he did it under 11 minutes. i think thats alot of improvement considerin it took me about 17 yesterday. i know i know...that sounds like wayyy to much improvement but i pushed today and yesterday johnson had 2 make me run. i lke these smiley things but they dont showup when i click on them so all welll and forget about that. or as tii would say...squash it. Man i caint wait until my summer camp. its the first time i will be away from my family for more than a day. its a whole week!! right now secret window is on and thats cool. i love the movie but it just comes on too much on the hbo channels. one thing i really dont like about myself is that i am attracted to the people who it could never work out between and then when i have realized that it is not goin to work they keep suckin me in and flirting with me again so then i have no choice but to like them. But i know that if they didnt flirt with me then i would be really bummed because after all i do like them. i just dont know these days. i really dont. people flirt excessively like all the time. i know im kinda a flirt too but gosh theres just those people that would flirt with a 500 pound 2 foot person if they were standing in front of them. imnot trying to say that being a midget or being obese makes you unwanted but the combination of both...and your just out of luck chuck. well i guess thats about it for today. ttyl. LoVe Lee. -that ended kinda suddenly didnt it...lol... what a loser i have become.

Mood: Confused...still
Listening to: Nothin for real

hey world. im just sittin here talkin to (him) and thats about it. i really need to stop liking him like right now! theres nothin he can offer me nor i him. it wont and would never happen and i dont really knw why i like him. hes just so sweet but then again hes sweet to everyone. and hes cute but so are alot of other people. and hes an ex-senior so i cant like him but then again i usuall like older guys. but thats not good. and hes waaaay older. man o man im confuzzled. lol. but yea. man i dont know whats up with me these days. i really need to snag me one of them church boys and stop bein infatuated with someone ill never see again. i just miss last year with almolst everything i have in me. squash that...with EVERYTHING i have in me. i think it was the best school year of my life. so far anyways. and now i feel like sticking my head in a hole cause i know it aint never comin back no matter how desperately i want for it to. thats okay though. next year will be real funn too. HoPeFuLLii. i really wanna type some more but there aint that much to say...heather just asked me to the movies but i caint go mom is done asleep sittin here right next to me. i caint believe she let me get on here when shes already asleep and has to go to work tomorrow morning. i think im done now. wait no maybe not. i have a poem i done wrote about a few days ago...i reckon ill let you guys be the judge...heRe GoeS NotHin... She Runs and tucks herself into a corner While beofre her eyes flashes a movie of horror She tries to cry out but knows it's no use When her parents fight she's as good as a mute Violent shadows now depict a great struggle He's get her mom in a painful, fatal muzzle The rope thats used is cutting off air Her heart is suddenly filled with dispair as she notices one shadow's no longer seen Then he leaves without a word And she looks onto the scene Her heart's suddenly broken Nothing left but a deep ravine She prays for her mom and despises her dad God's angel comes and tells her not to be sad She's twelve years old now and theres no violence to be found Her new mom and DAD love each other
Not like last time around. I made this the other day as i was sitting on my exercise room floor looking up at the ceiling...

Mood: ReaLLii ConFuSed
Listening to: the Weather

Im always bored so thats nothin new. lol. i guess im fine with life right now. i just dont know. theres always so much to just sit down and think about that i avoid sitting and thinking about it because i use the excuse that there's just too much and that its like the universe and you cant possibly imagine the size of it. i wish us humans used all of their brain instead of just that 10%. But then again if that was the case there would be just so many other bad things happening because people would be smarter and could think of other ways to hurt people. Thats kinda off track...lol. But yea...There's alot to think about. I think alot of people feel like this too. sometimes i feel like i should hate myself and that God should hate me because of how hateful i am. I cant accept the fact that some people acually like me because i know if i wasnt me then i wouldnt like me...ya know? Well i dont suppose you do unless your a complete random idot like me. If you do feel like me im sorry i called you an idiot...lol. but gotta go. explain more about what i meant here when im not on a time limit.

Mood: Good
Listening to: Somethin

im about to cut my caseys hair its gonna look sexii...lol. ive done it before so i aint gonna make it look too bad. lol. man o man i got back from volleyball conditioning a few hours ago and it was all good. we did yoga!! it was weird and maybe a lil embarassing but i likeit. most of the time. I liked that he pused us alot and that means im gonna loose somma this flubber! YaY! casey says im gonna be pretty good in volleyball cause she was just hittin with me. Well bbl. TtYL Lee...

Mood: ExCiteD
Listening to: CMT

This is my first entry on this site and im lovin it even though i havent seen it yett. i think its a really awesome host with just right amount of fetures. Im lovin it!!! just to let ya know right now this site will contain typos. but without that what would it be like? way too boring and perfect if you ask me. ecspecially because i type pretty fast and instead of lookin at the screen like were suppose to i look at my fingers because this way i can tell when my fingers hit the wrong key. most of the time..lol. well this isjust my test entry so i suppose if it works i will be back later to talk to ya some more...BYE BYE. LoVe Lee*