Mood: Depressed
Having an unhappy marriage is difficult. Having an unhappy
marriage and being a Christian is very difficult. And having an
unhappy marriage, being a Christian and having children is extremely
difficult indeed. I am a child of a broken marriage, and it did
me untold harm. I do not want to do that to my children.
And I knew what I was doing and I truly meant it before God when I said
"for better, for worse; till death parts us". So I really have to
stick at it and make it work - but oh I didn't know how hard it was
going to be (do any of us?). Knowing the right thing to do, and
actually wanting and being willing to do it are two different
things. That's why this is called "wrestling with myself".
I'm also wrestling with God. Stick around for the ride, if you
want to.
