Azure

Mood: mix
Listening to: oasis- stand by me

17 January 2006

haha sian blog nothing to write.

i realise my mistake over the last few days that made the problem seem so hard. being so naive about care. i'll try and try to change for the better haha and thats that. we chat again ytd and evything hopefully gets better. This all jie help both of us to settle things to wad it is now. i donnoe how things gonna work out later times, i just dun wan things hard hard arh damn it! =.= feel sian already wif all the nonsence. hope hope hope fully yea!! She has change ya! her temper has gone down haaaZZ!! good arh like that i oways knew she would!! at least her attitude improve lots sia afterall that wad i wanna see arh other than her studies (~ ^,) yoZZZzZzZzZzzzZz!! gogogogo arh lipas=.=(cockroach) 

JamiEeeee thing, sia la i still dun dare ask her for number =s now i dun even noe whether she still got work there not sian but i like arh her kindness and very sweet girl =D but of coz hu noes how kind is her kindness, i'll find out la later but reli can forget it liao =( so slow. actually come to think of it, i'm dun have feeling for her =.= but it can grow i think, just wanna grow for the right gal, one v v v good wan hahaaaazz... hopefully yaa so long no galfren sia =/ how like that....

Mood: not happy ony
Listening to: fan =.=

18 January 2006 0040hours

Today work at 5 pm till eleven with selvi the manager damn she's good, take over most jobs of mine plus plus keep create fun via chaos in the kitchen so today work damn bloody slack and stress free but my mind somehow not there sia, drifting of something i donnoe of wad nature?? i'm troubled but dunnoe wad on earth is it, jamie problem??caili problem mea? or work problem? or ncc problem?? or wad the hell!!!! but still got problem and wads that sia =/ the feeling is like kinda sad sad, wanna have someone take care of me =# haiz suay arh!!!! dun like this at all (><) just now got one old woman work arh, she dining (clean tables for customer) then she go eat i am asked to do dining then i do arh then i throw rubbish all till one port very full then over flow to its insde the side then i ask munkow clear he clear then the old woman come scold scold arh suay arh!! then sad then sian ppl help her still kena scold even alvin the other manager kena scold for helping her =.= such attitude old woman.

Mood: Fed Up

Haizzz.... the thing returns again haiz sian, she mentioned that i vent anger at her today sigh, i really feel sick with all this and its getting worst. sigh i didnt feel this sick before with her, tak boleh tahan arh. worst to worst, i apologised again nvm la after this no more her stuff hopefully =.= i really feel very uneasy sia Oi! give me a break... haiz. After putting me into overposessiveness, ignore me and now have me said to vent anger at her, she really arh haiz, cannot live to see me living =.= always wanna hurt me one way or another. people care for her oso problem, tok oso sae vent anger. I've suffered enough LIAO ARH!!!!!!!! haiz haiz haiz sad mad unhappy me liao become... i dun wish to sae anymore sigh, reli sicky i did apologies somemore sigh.....

Mood: HappY tired (^.=)
Listening to: Ku Katakan Dengan Indah--->>> Peter PAn

11 January

Today was my second day of work at LJS and i start normally arh report normally and met wif that abang and do the normal stuff i do like cook the damn foods mop the floor =.= sweep the floor =.= throw rubbish away =.= wash dishes and thats wad i noe la for regular but today got something new, i take over disher (somemone near the counter preparing wad was ordered to them) fries fish chicken all there and i alone disher coz auntie li cooks and abang do some stock adding just beside me ony those 2. At one time shiok sia coz not lots people then afnan at counter oso leks leks than skali after round 630 i think lots customer come buy then those four counter all request me lots of food =.- oi!! how am i to solve evything sia all say all diff things sia then rushing i blur then i seek abang help then help me lots sia i kanchiong like wad already coz not ony its lots some dish need some extra prep and i dun noe all and ony bits bbits coz new wad =.= KANCHIONG SIA!! imagine arh four counter, wif four diff customer wif diff request REQUESTING THE FOOD TO BE PREPARED while i'm just second day arh!! new kid arh no experience somemore nvr work before and dunnoe lots stuff =.= ish3 hahaha then MAnager come den help oso then lots commotion. manager oso tell them i'm new dun pressure me arh shout loud loud haha but of cuz v fun sia then from there i learn fast fast do stuff and decide stuff and organize =) haaaaa!! lol nice but v tiring =.= imagine " 1 set 1, 2 set 4 to go, one fish wrap, three set 3, 1 spicy 2 fishmore, 4 set 1, 1 regular fries, 1 fish tango, 2 fish tango 1 dun put sauce" all request me at the same time and wan me have it done FAST!!!OI!!!! SIao ARh!!! (Xxp ) but thats wad i call Fun ;) 

I wanna go home that tiime i becum very SOTONG =p haha we from somerset accidentally take the train to jurong east via woodlands =.= and thought to raffles place then skali next station is orchard =.O sia la KANCHIONG!!!! then get off the train then quick2 jump opposite train =O/ =.='''''' then when we change train from Raffles place to boon lay we keep worry sia thought that train we took ends at JURONG EAST the middle station then no more train o.O again KANCHIONG!!!!! then halfway then realise la LOL... then i alight at lakeside then take bus skali WRONG BUS!!!! wad again? KANCHIONG!!!!!!!!! '''=O then Arrrrhhhhh then Run back home (xX/) siao sey me today v sotong (o.O,p)

Mood: confused
Listening to: THe Reason-Hoobastank

10 January 2006

Long John's Silver at Somerset very relaxing sia coz at night then very quite few people. I worked at 11pm to 7am today and then sleep till 3pm now. My first time work of coz very blur blur arh keep stand donnoe do wad and then waiting for instructions. The menu quite ok la but then lots to do sia in the kitchen, cook la throw rubbish clean wash serve lol but nvm coz i got one brother down there we keep talk talk and then work so very fun la but when comes to serious work very sian. THe boss down there plus manager all super friendly and help us lots, this is wads work are   for..PLAY!! The whole thing ended at 7 then came the next shift people, keep play! i met one girl, emily's her name hahazz v playful and naughty sia keep disturb me all the time plus she likes to look into the mirror everytime do her hair =.= that dosent matter arh at least i finally found a replacement for a great play friend after for such a long horrid time =/ for caili, she used to be the greatest playful and one i oways look to wif my problems sigh sad stuff =(  nah that was thing of the past..... sad sia having said that ' things of the past ' so this is it huh, the exit?

09 January 2005

Its a rainy morning, i'm gonna start working tonight at 11pm till the next day at 7am long john silver, somerset. This few days back has been days of setback for me. I realise that i was too careless in caring for ppl and all i ever had in mind was to do wad is best for her but she thought otherwise and worst, she hate the stuff i did for her which made me kinda sad. I didnt know that she hates it till recently i asked her myself and all that i ever did for her seems to be trash thats so unwanted and harmful. She don't know how hard i fought for her this while even when she was about to drop to Normal i'm gonna make sure she wouldnt and it seems that she hates it and have me said to being so over possesive ... maybe i cared for her too much and she just hate? afterall all i did was for her own good and i'm very definite its for her own good even if she is to disagree and to have it battle out i'm still standing my ground. but all effort is now just uncountable mistakes and i'll stop doing things for her sake coz it'll only be mistakes after mistakes and nothing good, a friend not worth to befriend her. Now that i've thought i apologised for caring for people is very unreasonable and sad stuff, kena ignored is another thing. i'll withdraw myself sigh....