http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Finding That's the world from my perspective - with a free weblog from blogigo. en Finding Finding Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:25:46 +0200 daily 1   What do I write about I wonder. I am just a woman like any other woman, I'm sure. Trying to find my way in this world with as few scars as I can. I have a lot of scars & I'm only in my 30s. Although I have to say that I wake up most days amazed that I've lived this long. It really does blow my mind at times. I have a family that loves me, a man that has given up most of what he knows & loves for me, & yet I am continuously shocked when any of them say "I love you". My first instinct is to  go "No Way! Are you nuts? You can't possibly love me, I am unloveable!". My self esteem is knocked around all the time. I am much too sensitive for my own good & always have been! It is hard being me & yet easy as well. I am so use to being this way that I tend to want to stay like this. Even though it hurts me everyday. Strange, isn't it? I know it isn't good for me to think of myself this way but it is comfortable in it's sameness. Do you understand?     ... Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:25:46 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Finding/No-Title/1/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Finding/No-Title/1/