Mood: Mixture between stressed and psychosis
Listening to: In the end by Linkin Park
Do
you have any idea how much of a sap i feel right now? I am
now resorting to manipulation and mind games to get my ex-boyfriend to
leave me alone.... And that is simply something i DO NOT DO. I am
always very up front and honest and usually that works just fine.
Unfortunately when dealing with a person who has his own skewed sense
of truth....heh...it becomes somewhat more complicated. All i
know is i am soooo tried of this whole ordeal. I thought we could
be friends again but that apparently isn't working. He is still seeing
signs from heaven that we're ment to be together. (how am i supposed to
argue that???) Basically its his point of view vs. mine.
Not a good mix for a friendship. He still clings to hope while i am
absolutely in bliss that i'm single and not with him
anymore. And we have talked and talked and talked about the
situation. It changes nothing. I get the feeling now that he is
pretending to try and be just a friend again in order to be able to
spend time with me and make me care for him again. He is
constantly trying to impress me (trying being the operative word) And
acording to his buddies, he askes a magic 8 ball if we're going ot get
back together everyday. (apparently he keeps asking till he gets the
answer he likes) *rolls eyes* Thankfully he hasn't called for a few
days. I'm hoping he can take a hint and just go find something else to
do. *sigh* I honestly didn't think our relationship was so
great.....and i don't think i was THAt great of a girlfriend
either....oh well....again his opinion vs. mine......
(do you get the feeling that i' not getting anywhere!?!?)
grr.... Sometimesi wonder why i bother trying ot be nice at all! It just seems to get me in trouble.....
