Positive Thinking
Today's Fatslaying Workout 50 minutes rebounding
Today's Weight Still 199.0 lbs - woohoo!
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I realised after yesterday’s post that feeling attractive or unattractive is learned behaviour – and as such, can be unlearned.
Presumably an infant has no concept of beauty or attractiveness – it is only as the child grows that she learns to think in such terms, and she derives her self-perception from the actions and responses of others. If she’s told she’s lovely and shown love and affection, she has a greater chance of feeling attractive than a child who is told she’s ugly, and who is treated with unkindness and cruelty.
Now I had a friend when I was at University who was at least 150 lbs overweight, but she had the most amazing self-confidence and self-esteem. She was adored by her parents, who had left her in no doubt whatsoever that she was beautiful and attractive.
She knew she was fat – how could she not in today’s society? – but it never stopped her feeling sexy and gorgeous. And she never lacked for guys queuing up to go out with her, and it never entered her head to swathe herself in shapeless sweaters and jogging pants – she wore killer heels, deep red lipstick and revealing sexy clothes, and man, she was one foxy, gorgeous chick!
She was the one with the throaty laugh and the fine line in flirty innuendo, the one surrounded by guys at every party, the one who didn’t let her size stop her going wind-surfing and white-water rafting. She just knew that she was drop-dead gorgeous, and it coloured every aspect of her life, and enriched it in the most amazing way.
I guess large women like her are in the minority. Most fat women have endured some form of parental disapproval or criticism, and it’s taught them that on some really deep level they’re not quite up to scratch.
Some must never get over it, and must spend their whole lives feeling apologetic for how they look. Others learn that its just a pile of bullshit.
I’ve decided the time for feeling apologetic is over. Hell, I’m going to force myself to feel attractive!
So what if my eyes are squinty and I’ve got too many chins – at least my hair and my teeth are my own! And if I was bald and toothless, what would it matter? It wouldn't make me automatically ugly, and I’d be able to have a profitable sideline in giving Matt Lucas impressions and killer blow-jobs!
Heh, every cloud has a silver lining!
