The Fatslayer Chronicles

Feb 27, 2006 at 17:38 o\clock

And the greatest of these is love...

Today's Weight 172.0lbs 


The wedding was fabulous! My sister looked radiant and beautiful, the groom looked dashing, the barn dance was a hoot and there was only one (mild) fight towards the end of the evening. All told, I’d call that a successful wedding.


After much reflection, I’ve decided to break the whole anonymity thing, and post a link to the photos on Flickr. It’s not as if I ever write anything horrible on here about my family, or say anything that would mortify me if any of my friends and family discovered this site, so where’s the harm? I’m so proud of my lovely sister, and I want to share with you all how beautiful she looked. The link’s here (and also on the sidebar) if anyone is interested enough to follow it.


I got a pleasing amount of compliments on my outfit, and how much weight I’d lost, and as a result I was feeling pretty swell all day. My confidence soared, I danced every single dance, and I was determinedly unselfconscious about how hot and sweaty I was getting.


Then I came home and uploaded the photos, and my self-satisfaction dissipated instantaneously.




I guess (and it’s nice to know!) that my family look at me through the eyes of love, whereas I look at myself through the eyes of negativity and criticism. They saw vast improvement since the last time they saw me, whereas I zeroed in immediately on how fat and hideous I look, and how far I still have to go.


So the photos dampened my mood a little, but by then it was too late to ruin my day. I’d had a fabulous time, thinking I looked bloody gorgeous, and I’m glad my bubble didn’t get burst until I was back home and it was too late to worry about it.


And that’s progress, right?




Comments for this entry:

  1. pennyK wrote at Feb 27, 2006 at 18:09 o\clock:First let me say that I registered with blogigo for the sole purpose of commenting on this post - that\'s how strongly I felt about it. Second, you have no business calling yourself hideous. I looked at all the photos, and you look great! You look happy, confident, and yes, attractive. Incidentally, you also look like someone with brains and personality. OK, maybe you\'re not conventionally beautiful (and I\'m throwing this in mostly so you\'ll believe I mean what I say), but guess what, few of us are, and few of us are totally comfortable looking at photos of ourselves.

    Thirdly, sorry about your parents. That sucks.
  2. jaime wrote at Feb 27, 2006 at 20:03 o\clock:You posted a picture a while back from another wedding (or similar type gathering), and I think you\'re looking great!
  3. PastaQ wrote at Mar 3, 2006 at 19:46 o\clock:Yay! I love pictures. You look great.

    My older brother used to have ITP! He had it as a child, but got better as he grew up which sometimes evidently happens when you have it as a child. He had to wear a helmet as a kid when he went out because if he hurt himself he could bleed to death. He also bruised rather easily and my mom once got a dirty look in the grocery store because someone thought she was beating him.

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