An awesomeness of abs
Today's Weight 188.0 lbs
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I'm going to make more of an effort to update this blog more regularly - firstly because it's fun to do and it keeps me accountable, and secondly, because I like having regular visitors, and if you want return visitors you have to give them something new to read from time to time. On Tuesday one of my all-time-favourite-bloggers updated her diary for the first time since August 1st, and it was like having a birthday - I'd missed reading her so much, and it was lovely to have her back. It was lovely to get a comment today which implied that someone has similar regard for this site - I'm touched and flattered - thanks Shush.
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If I don't start to be a bit more discreet, people are going to think I've started batting for the other side - I've really started to eye up women since I started this weight-loss thing.
I don't mean in any sexual sense - I'm not fantasising about getting them in the sack or anything like that (though this HAS been a hot topic of conversation with my best mate lately as she has recently had her first trip to 'the dark side' with an experienced bi colleague and enjoyed it immensely thank-you-very-much) - rather my interest is prompted by an aesthetic appreciation of the myriad shapes, dimensions and proportions of women. Hell, I've got to admit it, I've turned into a bona-fide leg and arse woman! Heh.
Until now I've never really spent much time dwelling on the female form. I'm not what you'd call a feminine 'girly' girl, so I've never had that common female fascination with cosmetics, hair, skincare, fashion, handbags, shoes, jewellery etc. Most of my female friends are like me - interested in writing fiction, music, politics, reading - so we've never done that whole female-bonding-over-the-leg-wax-and-discussions-about-whether-my-bum-looks-big-in-this sort of thing. Some of you will think me lamentably unhip, but it's time to confess that I've never bought or read fashion magazines, never watched Sex and the City or Nip/Tuck, never really been interested in the whole girly-girl body-conscious scene.
Hmmm, maybe this explains why I got to be 100lbs overweight? It's certainly a thought....
Now, all of a sudden, I've suddenly become conscious of women in a bodily sense, and it's really weird! I find myself assessing whether I have the same body type as this woman, or more body fat than that woman. Will I look as good in jeans when I get to goal as this woman, or will I look sort of frumpy and lumpy like that woman instead?
Today I was at a conference and the presenter was reaching up to adjust the flipchart and her top rode up, exposing the most awesome set of perfectly defined abs, complete with a sparkly navel stud.
An adoration of abs. An accolade of abs. An awesomeness of abs.
Jeeze, I had to drag my eyes away, I was so bloody entranced. I'd never seen abs like it. I hadn't realised abs like that even existed other than on the air-brushed covers of glossy magazines. Honest to God, it was almost like falling in love - I just sat there slack-jawed and glassy-eyed, absolutely entranced with the heady possibility that one day, after many many crunches and many many many cosmetic surgery prodecures, I too could be the proud possessor of such a set of abs.
Hey, a gal's gotta dream, right?
I started my weight loss journey nearly a year ago and only disagree with you on one thing...the exercise came easily to me, but I\'m still a chocoholic through and through!
But yes, do update more often! This America finds some sort of solace in your honesty and frankness...you keep me motivated to stay on the right track. So many women with a few pounds to lose [me included] hide the actual number on the scale from people and pretend that the problem doesn\'t exist...but you put it out there for the whole world to see. I commend that! Keep it up.
KLB
Good to see it\'s all going fairly well at the moment with you, and I know what you mean about the eyeing people up thing, I\'m constantly looking at other people, particularly in the gym, now that I can finally come up with some comparisons that put me in a good light or give me some motivation! (I\'m just so self-centred sometimes, I\'m delighted that someone\'s started at the gym who\'s about 10lb heavier than me and a similar height, so I can compare my legs, arse, stomach etc etc...)