~realizing~
Mood: hurting
Listening to: ass like that- eminem
today i was thinking to myself about all the weird bullshit that i have basically set myself for. i have lost both of my best friends in a period of about 2 months, because they are pathelogical liars and i cant stand that. the first one i knew was full of bullshit but i didnt drop her cuz i didnt want to be alone. i kept my cool for about 2 years. then i just up and told her that i didnt want to be friends with a liar. and that was that. then she started all this shit and caused me so much stress.
~crossfade~
what i really ment to say. is im sorry for the way i am. i never ment to be soo cold.
i dont really understand why people cheat and lie and all that. it just comes back to get them in the long run. even worse lie straight up to a persons face "that you say you care about" and hurting them so hardcore. thats bullshit. but what ever floats their boat i geuss.
i talk about this like it doesnt faze me, but its been tearen at my heart and frustrating me so hardcore. i've so miserable. i make myself that way cuz i cant get them off my mind they make me soo angry, i would do anything to get them off my mind.
but i cant help wonder ~how can they look themselves in the mirror every morning and live with their own lies and kno that they hurt someone sooo bad?~
