Sunday
I don't know why I went to the alliance church on Sunday. I was planning on going to Bethel. I normally give my friend Ann rides to and from church on Sundays and Wednesdays. But I couldn't get ahold of her on Saturday evening to tell her that I couldn't pick her up. So I figured that I would just go to Alliance church in the morning. I got up at 7am to get ready, Ann finally called me back at 8:25am, five minutes before I would have left to pick her up. She informed me that she had spent the previous night at a friends and didn't need a ride. By then I was all ready to go and I decided that I would just go to morning worship at Alliance because I figured that Ann would still need a ride home. So I sat through the whole service at Alliance, not paying attention to the pastor but passing notes and talking instead, only to find out that Ann was going to her brother's place to help him with some yardwork after church. I have never liked the services at Alliance, I only went there because I needed a church and I knew serveral people who went there. So the transition was easy. I've only been attending services there since October, and I've grown to dislike the church more and more. I am a life long christian who lost her way last fall and still hasn't found the way back to God. I long for a closeness to him and I haven't been able to satisfy that longing since I started going to Alliance. I know that it has little to do with the church and more to do with my recent attitude and actions. I've been trying to build up the courage to go to another church, but I like the comfort and familiarity of Alliance. I changed churches rather suddenly back in October and have had a few regrets. I also have had alot of people questioning my choices. I don't want to go through all that again so soon. I have developed a family at Alliance, for the first time in my life I'm attending a church because of the people instead of the teachings. The last time I changed churches, I did so because of the people and that is why I can't go back. I loved the teachings of that church and I loved learning more about my creator. But recently I haven't had that close relationship that I want. I need Him to help me make this decision. I need to know his closeness once again. Please, Lord.
