Head Over Heels- Colonel Beanie

Jan 25, 2006 at 12:53 o\clock

It's so nice to be happy

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Keane

It is so nice to be happy. There are so many people with problems out there, and I see it, and I read about it, and I think, I have a quite uncomplicated life. I am so lucky, so fortunate. Here I am at 20, and it's all just beginning, there's so much possibility out there. I know it will go in a flash, and I will wake up at 80 (if I am lucky enough to live that long) and have the time to reflect on what once was.

So I have been thinking, this is life, it's not a dress rehearsal, here it is. What are you going to do with the time given to you? I have already wasted much of my young life with feeling unhappy, with letting people treat me badly, with just... doing nothing, daydreaming. I want to be proud of my life, to have something good to say. 

I am slowing making my way. There's still so much that I want to do that I have been too afraid to even attempt. It will all happen. A half-lived life is a tragedy. They say that you should dance as if no-one is watching you, sing as if no-one can hear you... I want to live unafraid! Not many people have that courage, but the ones who do leave such an impact on the world.

Someone told me not to rely on anyone else to make you happy. That's something you have to do for yourself. It's true I've found.

Anyway, that's my two cents worth. I really do appreciate being able to be happy. And if you are, I hope you do too.

-beanie