http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself well i'd like to say it's good but its shit really, but you know you love it en Carl_Himself Carl_Himself Mon, 21 Feb 2005 16:35:53 +0100 daily 1 Anyway, hello i've not updated for a while as i have been busy downloading stuff but i'll be back to normall, as in update more or less everyday when i get broadband in a week or two, went to joes on saturday night and got sufficiently drunk to an awesome soundtrack, anyway nothing special to report so i'll leave it at that before i bore all my fans (pfffft fans, yeah right) Mon, 21 Feb 2005 16:35:53 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Back/27/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Back/27/ Well finished my first week back at college rather successfully i'd say and i know you may be thinkg but its a thursday well i'm not going in tomorow as i was meant to be doing a presentation in sociology, but i have done all the work and i'm not letting the other ppl get away with out doing anything, so i've emailled them the basic shit and i'm gonna let them get on with it, just  'cause some of us do work doesn't mean that we should be taken advantage of Found out more about battle of the bands today (the immense joy) firstly there are going to be three days, and on each of these days two bands play and there is a vote to see who goes through, and at the end of these three days the highest voted two bands play one more song and then there is a final vote to see who wins, BUT votes are ten pence each and are unlimited  SO  i'm feeling like just paying for ten quids worth of votes for us and hopefully the rest of the band will and we will win AHAHA but i know no matter what... Thu, 17 Feb 2005 18:13:14 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Battle-of-the-bands/26/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Battle-of-the-bands/26/ over the last two nights i've had some of the shitest dreams ever. seriously. monday nights i dreamt that i went round to anne marie's house and i boned her then feel asleep and woke up at 3:13 and her dad cam into the room saying "don't you ever break her heart again" and this would have been acceptable if he wasn't floating and it felt so weird i wondered why my mum hadn't phoned me to see where i was. And then last night i was dreaming about playing hold my finger by sikTh and trying to explain the tab to joe and then i was talking to dan weller on the internet but only he had changed his email address ro some crazy sign. Been talking to joe about starting up a free metal band with inspiration from free jazz and he seems totally up for it, just something different. the band at the pub last night were amazing, they were just funk, almost better than porn music was awsome and i'd just like to say thanks to G for reading and being sucha cool friend latly even if he is out of time... Wed, 16 Feb 2005 08:47:13 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/dreams-are-either-weird-or-just-shit/25/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/dreams-are-either-weird-or-just-shit/25/ So latly i have just been feeling weird, i'm feeling really great and depressed at the same time, i've been ignoring the real way i've been feeling, and i suppose i'm am finally getting rid of anne marie, i spoke to her the other day and for the first time in ages i didnt have butterflies in my stomach when i did which was a brand new thing to me because even in the early days i felt something whenever i even caught her eyes but not anymore and i think i feel the way i do because its a big deal for someone that used to mean so much to me to now mean so little and what makes me feel better about is that i know its a good thing. I have a few essays and shit to write by tomorow night so i might actually do some work tonight but i really can't be bothered i'd much rather stand about with head phones plugged in to my amp while playing some guitar. My own little world exists whenever i have music on i dont have to think about people and i can just watch them, they all mess their own lives up... Sat, 12 Feb 2005 20:07:04 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Inbetween-the-sky-and-the-floor/24/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Inbetween-the-sky-and-the-floor/24/ i decided to go and see hot water music with G and he stayed at my gran's with me, and i finally got hold of "how may i help you?" single by sikTh which is absolutly amazing as it's the old school edition and has the old edition of suffice on it and the (if you wernt so) perfect video, oh my god i seriously love that band, and then i got some new trainers, just DVS anyway i'll be off now, doing lots of homework this weekend and dying my hair again as it looks like i've got blonde roots, take care Fri, 11 Feb 2005 23:06:37 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/so-hot-water-music/23/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/so-hot-water-music/23/ i think its time to say that my holidays are nearly over and practically are, 'cause after today all i'll be doing is stupid homework today i'm waiting for G to fone so we can go to leeds, he is going to see hot water music tonite but i'm just going to stay at my grandmas, so that means there wont be any updates till friday nite most likly..... Thu, 10 Feb 2005 10:56:42 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/nearly-over/22/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/nearly-over/22/ just got back from band practise and at long last we have got what we would call a track one, this basically means we have a reeally good opening track, aparently we have actually been entered into the battle of the bands and we are only playing two or three songs, and we spent a bit of time today talkin about it. So the first song we are going to play is stuck in my throat by reuben and then second could be our track one, and third might be nothing is the same but i'm not really feeling that but its not really up to me either way its all good. Last night was nothing special - i just got drunk and didn't pull anyway thats all for now as i have shit loads of homework that i should be doing tonite. Wed, 09 Feb 2005 17:48:59 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/and-thats-a-track-one/21/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/and-thats-a-track-one/21/ well i havnt updated in uite a long motherfucking time and thats because my windows browser broke, they never seem to work anyway so now i'm using mozilla firefox now, which is pretty cool. Any way not much has happened over the last few days i went to leeds yesterday and talked to my grandma about lending some money from my bank account and she said yes, also i bought some dickies jeans, isnt dickies an awesome brand just really durable stuff and looks pretty cool too, no wonder chino likes that stuff so much. Well i'm off out tonite and it should be fairly good, cause it's the holidays and everybody should be out and i mite pull! doubt it tho. anyway it's early i'll update tomorow telling the details of tonight - Tue, 08 Feb 2005 12:33:47 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Stupid-windows/20/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Stupid-windows/20/ well half term but its a week off college which is good, reason i havn't updated for a while is there has been so little to comment on, other than four things - i'm ill - Band has a new song - Tuesday nite was dead - and i'm really really ill but still i've had lots of time to think about things and the main things ahve been that i need to get a girl (as always) and that it's been a year since me and anne marie started going out and that means it's been half a year since we split up and thats a long time to go with out gettin with someone else, and i've had the chances but i sacrificed them for her and one of them was a threesome NO!! Got the norma jean cd i have wanted for ages and i found out their new one is out on the 1st of march and they are touring - looks like i'll be going to manchester soon then For comic releif there is goin to a be a battle of the bands at college and it looks like we are going to be playing it as i only know if three bands in my year and us being one of them we should... Fri, 04 Feb 2005 11:03:09 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/now-holiday-like-bringing-knife-gun-fight/19/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/now-holiday-like-bringing-knife-gun-fight/19/ Well i went to leeds yesterday bought some tee shirts yadda yadda got of the train at cas and loads of mates pulled up in this car and bundled out and asked me if i wanted to go to a gig that nite back in leeds so i did, dropped my stuff off at my gran's told her i would be staying the nite, i wore the amazing hoodie that we made, it had give me head wrote on the back and stuff, but in the Que for the gig these girls started to the lick the door and press their breasts up against it and THEN they jsut started gettin them out and lettin everyone have a look and take pictures, started to flash traffic and then the hottest one with the nicest tit was walkin round letting people suck on her nipple, and yes i did have a go. Any way the gig starts and this band roses are red came on, the singer had a huge head, and one of the guitarists was jumping round like a prick and hit parry in the head with his guitar, me and him were stood rite in the middle of the crowd and the singer gets up on the little speakers... Sun, 30 Jan 2005 17:01:39 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Emo-girls-and-nice-breasts/18/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Emo-girls-and-nice-breasts/18/ i forgot to mention earlier, i was stood talkin to ste and cheh i do wear my jeans below my bum but this random guy came up behind me and tried to pull them down, he didn't manage to but this really pissed me off, i turned round and started shouting at him, it went like this... Prick: we've had a conversation about your trou...... Me: DICKHEAD ! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PLAYIN AT Prick: But we.... Me: (still shouting people begining to stare) ARE YOU GAY ?!?! YOU ARE YOU DIRTY FUCKING GAY, ARE YOU TRYING TO BEND ME OVER OR SOMETHING YOU DICK YOU DIRTY FUCKING GAY FUCK OFF I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINKG FUCK OFF!! i and then he went back to his table and got all hsi friends and ran off, and now when i see him at college i'm gonna call him a dirty fucking gayhe is gonna regret trying to do that...... so this me at home chillin with a beer Fri, 28 Jan 2005 21:01:06 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Dirty-fuckin-gay/17/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Dirty-fuckin-gay/17/ Well because i only take three subjects at college i finish at 10:20 on fridays so i chilled and talked to deathwish and some girls for most of the day. One really strange thing did happen tho, this girl came up to me and asked what colour my hair was, and that it looked really cool and would i like a polo, random or what and jack introduced us and she is pretty hot but i dont even know if i've pulled there or not. Had alot of time to think, so i tried to think of something important but no, jsut about girls and singing to wozo and naked dave and stuff. Still didn't get my ema bonus so they'll be gettin an angry phonecall on monday, i want that money, off to leeds tomorow, probly jsut buy a ticket and a polo shirt, i want a black one that i can put my deftones patch on that G got me from america, Rite i'm gonna see if i can learn anymore reuben songs, and think about a song to cover BUT did learn the end of heartache by KsE today because deathwish/willan/dickwish said i should. rite everyone... Fri, 28 Jan 2005 19:55:24 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Friday/16/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Friday/16/ i love fuckin about andbecause everyone knows it's all i do i get away with saying whatever i want all the time. I get paid tomorow for a job i finished in december - how weird i love my band, i can truely see it going somewhere not just fuckin about i miss girls tho and purly just for sex i really need to pull, or find some hot girl hungry for cock, like some one that i can just have casual sex with that would rule, was gonna put some pictures of me at my prom on here but i'm ugly on them and shit so mayB not Got so many things to say but i cant really put them down now, too much thinking about girls and music is probly to blame so i'll go.... Thu, 27 Jan 2005 20:35:17 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/not-much-just-plenty/15/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/not-much-just-plenty/15/ well this is the first time i've been home properly since tuesday morning, i went to college then went to the pub, and this chick emma caught me looking down her top, was she bothered? no she actually decided to show me some more, didn't hook up tho and then on the way home i ended up pissing my name on a wall and walkin for half an hour in my boxer shorts and made it home fine and then went to college today after coming home for a quick shower and picking up my guitar, walked in to town to buy some strings, found out i havn't been playing with real gauge 11's but now i am and the strings are gold, went to band practise and things were completly out of hand crazy but amazing and sounded fuckin awesome now i'm home gonna alter some tabs get some stuff emailed to college for my homework and go to sleep after watchig that sic human anatomy program Wed, 26 Jan 2005 21:39:36 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Tuesday-to-now/14/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Tuesday-to-now/14/ Well as it currently stands i am poor and in debt to my mother. i was meant to get my ema bonus on friday but no, that did not happen, so i am a hundred pounds down. Last week my guitar teacher asked me if i wanted to buy a chorus pedal of him for twenty quid, assuming that i would have my bonus by then i thought yeah i can afford that so i told him i'd buy it off him today, all so i have to lend 35 quid of my mum for my system of a down ticket which i need today, she is giving me her bank card - crazy - also i want my death from above 1979 ticket for next friday but at this rate it doesn't look like i'm going to be able to afford it, and i ahve payments to amke on my new computer and basically i need to buy beer, so ste is loaning me ten pounds tonite - crazy - and i'm gonna owe him some money, but in the long run i'll be okay.      And to make things worse i am almost depressed i swear, i miss my ex girlfriend a hell of a lot, (far too much for what she is and how she makes me... Tue, 25 Jan 2005 09:42:45 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Money-yeah-i-miss-that-stuff-and-GUN-FOOD/13/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Money-yeah-i-miss-that-stuff-and-GUN-FOOD/13/ that i've been busy and that's why i havn't updated in so long but really i've been doin nothing at all, been up at ste's house or a G's place and that is it, apart from the times when i've just sat at home playing guitar which seems to happen alot of the time. can't draw anymore, and not being bigheaded but i can draw, very well sometimes, and i used to use art as a realease of anger and other such tings but its just not a quick enough release anymore so guitar seems the way forward. I draw when i'm anxious but thats not very often and it's usually shit so the few things that my life consists of are College The Pub Guitar Music Goin to a friends house Sitting around being angry as fuck at either my self or anne marie Gettin showers and of course THE BAND but seriously that is it and it might seem like a lot but it isn't, some things may happen only once a week and others might happen every day but only last ten minutes (like showers) yeah i'm totally in love with my life no matter how boring it is, and... Mon, 24 Jan 2005 08:29:52 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/I-d-like-to-think/12/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/I-d-like-to-think/12/ Well the band has been through many phases, but is at it's best right now First it was a 3 piece then i joined and then we split and re-formed without the previous guitarist. So from then on Naked Dave on drums as allways me on guitar and Ste on bass and vocals and we were a punk band  Then we eventually decided thru the summer to have Garvey (a good Friend) on bass and ste on pure vocals, and we some weird funk metal band. Then after that we decided to get a new bassist due to practise usually being missed, on his part. So we got a new bassist and he is great and i can't imagine us with out him now and we are takin things back to the old school, so rite now WE ARE called December, WE ARE fuckin OLD SCHOOL METAL AND WE DO PLAY IN DROP D FLAT (or drop Csharp, whatever turns you on) and it will fuck you up, cant wait to play a show with our new material.... Fri, 21 Jan 2005 22:35:22 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Old-school-yeah-i-love-that-shit-the-band/11/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Old-school-yeah-i-love-that-shit-the-band/11/ Today at college we some how got hold of a teddy bear, being the sick twisted people we are, we decided to take it to pieces, i managed to rip its head off, and then ste managed to get the arms and legs off of it, now all its body pieces are on a bottle with it's head on top. With the great idea of scarifice in mind we decided that we are goin to set it on fire  but in my way home a ran in to parry and we set it on fire (just a little bit) well any way here is a picture of the unfortunate little bear.                                            UNLUCKY ! ! ! !                                        Fri, 21 Jan 2005 16:31:42 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Teddy-Bears-BEWARE/10/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Teddy-Bears-BEWARE/10/ Was so fucking amazing yesterday, we covered around the fur by the deftones and it only took an hour to master it which is good Then with the help of bassist daves effect pedal we wrote a song and decided to keep one of our old songs, so now we have three and considering we started over again yesterday that aint half bad. Any way college is callin.... Thu, 20 Jan 2005 09:03:52 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Band-practise/9/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Band-practise/9/ Unless something funny happens at college today i wont update later on, because i'll be in a rush to go to the pub and get wasted and then it will be band practise tomorow and on friday i should get  £100 for going to college for a whole term woo anyway see y'all later on Tue, 18 Jan 2005 08:39:52 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Well-it-s-early./8/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Carl_Himself/Well-it-s-early./8/