...:::Carl Himself:::...

Mood: -
Listening to: Root - deftones

that i've been busy and that's why i havn't updated in so long but really i've been doin nothing at all, been up at ste's house or a G's place and that is it, apart from the times when i've just sat at home playing guitar which seems to happen alot of the time. can't draw anymore, and not being bigheaded but i can draw, very well sometimes, and i used to use art as a realease of anger and other such tings but its just not a quick enough release anymore so guitar seems the way forward. I draw when i'm anxious but thats not very often and it's usually shit so the few things that my life consists of are

College
The Pub
Guitar
Music
Goin to a friends house
Sitting around being angry as fuck at either my self or anne marie
Gettin showers
and of course THE BAND

but seriously that is it and it might seem like a lot but it isn't, some things may happen only once a week and others might happen every day but only last ten minutes (like showers)

yeah i'm totally in love with my life no matter how boring it is, and thats only becuse i don't really have the balls to comit suicided even tho i contemplate it alot its not worth puttin on my list, but i suppose it would suck not to be alive and would be a great loss to everyone that knows me, who else would make them laugh? AND, who else would be in the band, who else would write some of the best music to ever come from a group of teenagers?

well i don't see any body else cappable of doing those things so it looks like i'll have to stick around for a while (unlucky anne marie, how easy it ould be for you if i was dead like you wish)