Weekend recap+Today
Mood: Neutral.
Listening to: TV
Okay...So, since I didn't get a chance to talk to you over the weekend...I'll recap.
Friday-Aunt had psychotic attacks and mum had to go up to the hospital with her. I remember writing about this already though.
Saturday-Mum came home. My friends Audrey and Kaddie wanted me to hang out with them...But I couldn't. Then Skye called and wanted me to hang out with her...My mum said no to that to. Then I started to cry because no matter how hard I try to take care of everything while she was gone...I still didn't do good enough. She didn't even bother to recognize that I kept the fort down and didn't kill my siblings, or that I cooked and cleaned like she would have if she'd been there. She just yelled at me and told me how lazy and stupid I was. So, she felt bad for making me cry and let Skye come over. I wasn't using tears for a manipulative...I'm just so tired of people telling me how bad at everything I am...And how I can't ever do anything right. It just hurts, you know? So, Skye and I hung out together...But...We got into a bit of a spat. She read an angry blog of mine on Myspace telling people who leave anoymous comments saying I'm a fat, slut, dyke to fcuk off. She took it as I don't want to be with her anymore...Which was wrong! Okay, *sappy moment coming up. WARNING* I love her more than anything ever! More than the universe and more than life...I would do anything for her. I'm so convinced she's my one true love...I've even talked with her about spending forever with her. Nine months of my life...Devoted to her and her alone. I honestly want to be with her til time's end and even longer! Okay, sappy moment over. It's safe to stop throwing up. Then she and I went to her house and spent the night together. Her mum finally likes me! YAY!! She hugged me...Which was kind of shocking and unexpected.
Sunday- Hung out with Skye for most of the day...Went home at three. Then Audrey and Kaddie called me to go to the Cemetary with them and do some spiritual work. I read everyone's palms, we went to the cemetary and we tried to coax a spirit into Kaddie. It actually worked, her name was Marina...She was a bride to be...Then she was murdered and she didn't know by who or even when. She also couldn't remember too much from before the time she passed. Then we played with the ouija board. Next time the three of us get together they're going to try to hypnotize me and let someone go into me. Dangerous work...I know. But, I want to try. I want to see what happens.
Today- Eh, I was drained from the spiritual work yesterday. I had to lend Kaddie a lot of energy to let Marina in. I went to school despite mum's repeated offer to let me stay home(she could see how completely dead I was.) because I wanted to see Skye. Today was alright...Homophobes still saying stuff like 'fat dyke' and 'slut' for no real reason. It doesn't really bother me so much anymore. Except the fat part...But, I'm working on it.
