I cry through my skin.

 Last night was the wedding...It was fun, although it wasn't too great for my self esteeme. Everyone kept telling me how gorgeous I was, and how I need to stay on this planet to share my beauty and talents with others...It was all so empty. People would smile at me, but the smile would stay firmly planted on their lips and never reach their eyes. I just wish people would stop lying to me. David was great, he was sweet to me...Although it's more than obvious to me that the feelings I have for him aren't mutual. Audrey keeps telling me 'DUDE! YES THEY ARE! He was just shy...'blah blah blah. Just more empty words. If he liked me, he'd have at least responded to my flirting. I feel like a complete idiot. Why would I have the audacity to think that someone actually returned my affections? I know from the past that never ends well. I guess it was just wishful thinking. But whatver, I guess it doesn't matter.