I cry through my skin.

Mood: Sad, lonely, confused, anxious

 More anxiety about school. What happens when I finally go back? Am I going to have friends, am I going to fit in, will I be able to keep up the life that I've started to make for myself? I never seem to be able to be normal...I'm always different from the other kids. How? Why? Why can't I just be like every other teenage girl in the world? Or am I alreayd like every other teenage girl and I just think I'm different for whatever reason? But if I'm already the same as everyone else...Why is it that I feel so isolated when in a group of my peers? Maybe everyone feels this way...Maybe no one every feels like they fit in at all and they feel like everyone hates them because they're different. But if that's so then why are people appauled when I decide to share what goes on inside this warped little mind of mine? I don't know. I'm just being stupid and emo and depressive. Today is Ken and my's one month anniversary...We're going out to do something tonight(although he won't tell me what). I'm happy to be seeing him...He always makes me smile. I just hope I don't fuck up by being stupid and emo. Although...These sudden, intense, feelings of sadness and desolution might be due to the fact that I haven't been taking my pill lately...Blah, whatever. I don't care. I'll probably end up dead by my own hand before age 25.