Stupidity
How dare I. How dare I think even for the tiniest second that I was worth someone liking me? ESPECIALLY a nice guy that I actually happen to like. Kyle is in love with this girl in our play...No, not my friend Mykael like I thought before. A different one. A beautiful little blonde. I don't understand...Why don't guys like me? Why don't the nice guys like me? Why am I always what they settle for and never what they strive for? I'm never what they want...Just what is almost good enough. Story of my life right? I just...I really like him...And I've felt like crying...Because I actually thought he might like me back. I thought I might have a chance...And so I was going to tell him that I liked him...But now I obviously can't. Now I'm obviously just a friend...I can't believe I thought he liked me! Of course he doesn't...He couldn't. I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm antisocial...And I hate myself. How can anyone like that? They can't...It's impossible. I can't even like me. It just hurts that much more because I thought something was real...And it's not. It was all in my head. God I'm just so stupid! I guess romance is for some people...But not for me. Never for me.
Don't think you aren't worthy of anything. if he prefer someone else it is not you the problem. He may have different taste that you had expected. I'm sure you are not ugly, fat. Just be patient the right person for you will come along soon. BTW I'm pretty sure he's missing on someone great! Guys can be dum! Right! Keep your shin up hon! HUGS