Stupidity
I know I'm stupid. I really do, so I just wish I could get around this not actively searching for romance thing. Guys are stupid, they lie and they cheat and they only want me because they think I'm an easy score. So, why do I still keep the secret hope that someone will take a genuine interest in me? What good ever comes from dating? Nothing! That's what! I'm stuck with heartache and uncertainty and thinking about someone all the time. Yes I still like Kyle, but not going to happen. We're just friends, and I value our friendship too much to fuck it up with something as sophmoric as a crush. Although...I really want to cut. I started scratching during school...I have some small scratches on my wrist now. Not that it matters...It didn't help. Just made me want to cut more. Honestly, the only thing that's keeping me from killing myself is Pyro. I'm so scared that people will be mean to him after I'm dead. I can't trust anyone with him. They all hate him because he doesn't like them. Damn dog...The only thing that seperates me from death.
