I cry through my skin.

Aug 24, 2006 at 01:10 o\clock

Stupid Fat Ugly Me

by: CapturedMoonLight

 Alright, well that just settles it. I am losing 50 pounds if it kills me! Today I went back to school shopping, I swear it's a miricle they had any clothes that fit me...I'm so huge. I just sat in the dressing room crying for ten minutes. I can't stand my body! I can't stand the way I look! It's no wonder my school doesn't want to transfer me...They know I won't go back there and they don't want to subject anyone else to my atrocious appearance. I know I'm being illogical...I really don't care though. I will be 90 pounds...I don't care if that's one of those stupid anorexic weights. Lots of girls are 90 pounds...They never get called fat or ugly...They never get picked on. I want to be like them...They're perfect.  I'm tired of being second rate...I will be perfect. Nothing is going to stand in my way this time...I'll get what I want no matter what anyone else says or does.

Comments for this entry:

  1. Valarie wrote at Aug 24, 2006 at 07:40 o\clock:Ok, first off: Most girls who weigh 90 pounds and look alright are also about 4 feet tall. You should base your weight on your height and build. Clothes are bullocks. They mean nothing. Second of all: who told you you aren't pretty? Knock'em in the balls! and one last thing: Most the scums who are nasty to you will end up with ego issues and won't be able to cope when they hit the real world. You at least have something they don't: a realistic view of the world.

    So bullocks to the whole lot! You are fine the way you are. Most real men like a lady for her heart, scars, flaws and all! You deserve a prince sweety not a toad like the ones at your school.

    Valarie
  2. bluestone wrote at Aug 24, 2006 at 12:28 o\clock:Women have to battle with lots of expectations that 'women' actually try to enforce upon 'women' - honestly we are our own worst enemies.

    One of the most important things I have discovered is the falsehood of that old lie "you are what you look like"

    Wat a load of commercial, consumers, fashion house bullshit.

    Sure, if you want to go for walks and eat healthily - do it - you will always feel good doing that..... but don't believe the old lie!

    Too many girls get sucked into that bullshit game.... money does not equate to true happiness, neither does physical appearance....

    Teenage culture is cruel because it is packed with 'superficial lies' about what is 'good' or 'quality'.

    Take a deep breath, slow down that thinking, give yourself credit for all the great things you actually ARE. Choose a more healthy lifestyle if you think it will improve you in an all over way.


    Best of luck

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