Stuff about Dad..
I don't know if he intends to hurt my feelings...Or if he means to be inspirational....But he really makes me feel so much like killing myself because he tells me what a terriable person I am. Last night he asked me about my love life...Which is fairly typical...Then it evolved into a lecture about how I don't want a real relationship and I just maintain fake relationships that I controle...He says that because I don't like the people who have shown interest in me...It's not that I don't like them...They just aren't for me. I mean, I tried with Rebecca...That turned out pretty poorly....We weren't compatiable. Skye...Well, we all know what happened there. Along with Lance...And as for Wes, he isn't it. He likes all my friends, and he just isn't the type of person who could hold my interest or that I could fall in love with. I know that sounds terriable and I probably need to die for saying it, or even feeling it, but it's true to me. I don't want a relationship with someone who I can't fall in love with...Or someone who I can't relate to, or share things with...I know I have high standards, which is ridiculous for me...I really can't afford to be picky...But, I hate how he thinks that he knows everything about me. He really doesn't. He thinks I don't want a real relationship...But he's dead wrong. I do want one, really badly, but I don't want one that won't work. I want one with a person who I can love, who can understand my passions, if not share them. I don't want to be with someone who I know won't work...I don't want to be with Wes, he doesn't understand me...He couldn't begin to understand my beliefs, my emotions, my family life...Or anything. I can't be with someone who doesn't understand. Rebecca has too much of her own drama to be with me...And she doesn't seem to be able to talk about anything but what's wrong with her. I just hate how people judge me so harshly...I want to find my one true love in life...Not some three week boytoy. Dad dolesn't seem to be able to understand that....He thinks that I don't want love...He couldn't be more worng. That's all I want...But I want the RIGHT love.
You have the right attitude sweets. You have every right to want the kind of love that lasts. You just never mind your dad. He\'s an idiot. No disrespect intended. Sometimes our parents are complete morons. It\'s like we have to teach them a thing or two. Hope your week just gets better darlin\' Take care of you!!
Love & Cyber Hugs,
~Teri~ xoxo