Stressing...
WHY AM I SUCH AN ANNOYING TEENAGER?! I'm begining to worry about not going to college...Everyone else is doing it, everyone else is holding onto mommy and daddy just that much longer...And here I am cutting all ties and moving to New York. I don't know if I'll be able to do all this by myself...And I will be by myself...Completely and totally. Maybe Audrey will come...My guess is not. I mean, she's my best friend...But we're falling apart. We fight all the time and she always seems to be saying catty things to me...And she feels the same way. I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it alone...
And then today is my date with Kyle. He's picking me up at five...After I said I was through with romance forever. God I'm dumb. I want a cigarette....Or twelve...Can't have any though because God hates me. I'm worried about a lot of stuff right now...I feel way stressed. Really high strung...Freaking out...Worried about eating in front of Kyle...Or rather, pretending to eat. I feel like I'm going to hurl out of nerves...Does he actually like me or does he just feel sorry for me? And now I'm fighting with Audrey. Perfect.
